Momentis Vitae Meae

Pets i want :D

2012-01-07T02:56:00.003+08:00

Pets i want in the future :D

An axolotl ( dunno how to pronounce it :P)
it looks cute and innocent :D

dunno why people find it creepy and disgusting =.=

A cobalt Blue tarantula
it looks cool and hey, it matches my hair :D LOL

A Blue panther chameleon :D

chameleons are cute but i wonder this are for sale...

they look rare but i could be wrong :P

an iguana :D

so far thats all i thought of. but of course, i would only pick one. having too many can be a hassle to look after. so probably i want the chameleon :D

The Dreadful cold has return!!

2011-12-19T02:01:00.001+08:00

great.... just got back from the london trip and i got a cold.... just how did that happen??? besides getting caught under that rain alot... usually im quite sturdy... wonder when did i became so weak. anyways, yes, sick, feeling fatigue, weak, nausea-tic, worst of all... CAN'T SMELL !!! noooooooo!!! which means i would be eating nice food that turns out tasteless cause i can't smell!! OH THE HUMANITY!!!

feel really like crap. head pounding (but i didn't take any alcohol...), can walk but probably gonna walk like some drunkard... and hard to concentrate on my dissertation. its annoying when u have to blow ur nose every 5 minutes... yes, my dustbin would be full of tissue containing my mucus. almost lost my voice this morning, but manage to get something out, but after awhile, my voice change into a manlier voice... according to hui yann. body temperature gone haywired cause it would be hot then suddenly change cold so can't really tell what im feeling. if your reading this Karen, don't tell mom or dad :P otherwise they are gonna worry... so yea, im fine (sort of). anyways, today, it snowed for 5 sec. dangnabit, why must i be sick when the snow is coming??!! i won't be able to play with the snow (T^T)

London Bridge Experience

2011-12-17T06:08:00.002+08:00

Just got back from my travel to London with Jon and a friend. it was a nice trip :D really fun. cause i get to go somewhere that my family have not been to yet. so it was really exciting on deciding where to go and such (besides going shopping, sometimes shopping bores me.... i like to shop but not the whole day... i would die...) Anyways, I should be talking about the places that we visited but.... the london bridge experience is something that I CAN NEVER FORGET!! WOOHOO!! XD

well, it was really funny getting there. we used an underground train tube to arrive at the right street. once we are out, we tried finding our way with the map around the street. we were confident~ adventurous~ but.... we went the wrong way!!! Jon opened the map with out friend, i just looked at it but usually i just leave it to them (shouldn't do that...) we weren't sure where we are that time, so i just asked an old lady and she was also the one who approached us and all asking are we alright. so I asked her where is the London Dungeon and she gave me a OMG look. like OH NO NOT ANOTHER ONE kinda look. but she still guide us the way (she walk with us, such a nice old lady, i should quit making jokes about old ladies) so while we were walking, i find it awkward that its gonna be a quiet walk towards there so i just started a conversation with her. she asked me why do I wanna go to the London Dungeon. Apparently my inner feelings was like ITS GONNA BE AWESOME, IM EXCITED TO SEE WHAT HORRORS AWAITS AND WHAT KIND OF HORROR STORIES WILL THERE BE!!!
but instead, i answered her : " oh, i just thought it might interest me~ ( i lied... but hey, dun wanna scare an old lady who is guiding us the way) she then told me she was from the association who is against all tortures and the london dungeon was a place where tortures took place last time. so first thing in my head was OH CRAP! yea, she then start telling me her fascination towards man who are interested in this kind of entertainment although we know its bad. she didn't exactly guide us all the way but she did help us alot. she told us the direction on where to go and such and she told me to "look after the boys" i was like D: shouldn't they be looking after me??? i considered it as a joke. so we move on.
we arrived the right street now but we couldn't find the entrance so we asked those people who were handing out fliers about the london bridge experience ( i know i kept changing london dungeon into london bridge experience[LBE] but the LBE is the place where we are going, London Dungeon is another place.) we asked him and he gave us a discount (WOOHOO!) and i was the only one jumping with joy cause i really want to go in there. he guide us the way and he told me this, " Take care of the guys"
i was like (O____O) what?? again??? it was funny so we didn't really bother about it, we just moved on.
bought the tickets with the discount, went to pee (to prevent ourselves from pissing our own trousers) and we went in. there was a man who gave an introduction of this whole journey that we were about to take. he talk and talk and then he said, you need to have a leader. someone... BRAVE...someone...STRONG... COURAGEOUS... *points finger at me* YOU THERE YOUNG LADY! STEP RIGHT UP! YOU WILL BE THE LEADER!
i was like (O___O) AGAIN????? it was really funny, the three of us just broke down and laugh. we went in and it really make my heart nervous. one guy suddenly jump in front of me but he wasn't a monster or such (thank God...) telling us the story of the vikings. and moving on to another room. when we open the room, the first thing i saw was a woman sitting on the floor with crossed feet. first thing that comes in me and Jon's head was OMG A WITCH!!! so we didn't dare go near her..... LOOOL. she asked for a lift, i wasn't kind enough so i push Jon to picked her up. XD apparently she wasn't a witch... she was just a normal citizen. telling us the story of the fire of london, she then asked whats fire in our language, so we said API. and she pronounce it as A PEE!! Lool. so we actually had to run to some place cause of the "A PEE" and we were warned about further ahead is the TRUE HORROR. we were a little hesitant cause what we are about to enter is the UK'S BEST SCARE ATTRACTION which won 3 AWARDS for 3 YEARS!!

but we went on anyways, it was really scary as we saw some dummies that quite look lifelike. i was suppose to be infront but i ended up behind Jon so he ended up leading. our friend was behind me and we had to walking single file line and our hands on the shoulder of the person in front of you. so we move on. it was scary but me and Jon hold in our screams. apparently our friend was on a screamathon... he kept screaming for any thing that pops up. and he jolted alot... so the actors in the horror house ended up targeting him cause both of us weren;t screaming at all. it was scary but we had to endure it otherwise they are gonna keep scaring us. kinda easy to figure our their tactics. oh god, so many things to talk about but its best that you experience it yourself. well, if you daring to~

A little heads up on what is IN there~

you can check out the link if you want~ http://www.thelondonbridgeexperience.com/

I'M ALIVE!

2011-12-07T03:06:00.005+08:00

Nothing I say comes out right

I can’t love without a fight
No one ever knows my name
When I pray for sun, it rains
I’m so sick of wasting time
But nothing’s moving in my mind
Inspiration can’t be found
I get up and fall but

I’m ALIVE!, I’m ALIVE! oh yeah
Between the good and bad’s
You’ll find me
Reaching for heaven
I will fight
And I’ll sleep when I die
I’ll live my life I’m ALIVE!

Every lover breaks my heart
And I know it from the start
Still I end up in a mess
Every time I second guess
All my friends just run away
When I’m having a bad day
I would rather stay in bed but I know there’s a reason

I’m ALIVE!, I’m ALIVE! oh yeah
Between the good and bad’s
You’ll find me
Reaching for heaven
I will fight
And I’ll sleep when I die
I’ll live my life I’m ALIVE!

When I’m bored to death at home
When he won’t pick up the phone
When I’m stuck in second place
Those regrets I can’t erase
Only I can change the end
Of the movie in my head
There’s no time for misery
I won’t feel sorry for me

I’m ALIVE!, I’m ALIVE! oh yeah
Between the good and bad’s
You’ll find me
Reaching for heaven
I will fight
And I’ll sleep when I die
I’ll live my life I’m ALIVE!

My Bosom friend

2011-11-30T08:30:00.009+08:00

My Bosom friend,

you work hard,

you did your best.

Give yourself a pat

and give your mind a rest.

Never condemn yourself,

nor blame your birth

your already perfect

so don't object.

burning the midnight's oil,

it makes your blood boil.

drinking nothing but coffee

your a tough cookie.

what keeps you going is not the coffee,

its your determination to cast your nets widely.

hardworking and talented

you hold all the aces.

Don't compare yourself to others,

what you have is worth a million dollars.

Enjoy the process

and you'll progress.

a stepping stone

a bird has flown

that bird is you.

so.....

My Bosom friend,

you may be small and petite

but to me your short and sweet.

( my rhyming maybe abit off... well, its cause its like 2am here so im probably writing to you in a half sleep state (><) anyways, whenever ur down in the dumps, read this! GET YOUR SPIRIT UP! hope this cheers you up midget! )

Screw it.

2011-11-18T20:07:00.004+08:00

Don't you just hate it when u lose focus? for the past few days you were working hard, then suddenly, on the last day its like I don't give a crap anymore.... I wanted to do more but inside me, its like totally drained out screaming AHHHHHHHHH!!!!! fuck it, im going to play games... :P mind my language. maybe my mind is deprived from playing around. probably thats why :P

Nonsensical blabbing

2011-11-09T20:44:00.003+08:00

Still in my room, doing my dissertation while listening to all Tim Burton's movies soundtrack and im doing a dissertation about him and Hayao Miyazaki. I rather be doing the project because my heart and hands seems to want to draw than typing the work.. but anyways, the lecturers here really open my eyes to see how far away I am. well, not to say VERY far away but its like wake up, its different here! the competition here is really high and i can see alot of people were hardworking... this really motivates me to work hard.

I was told that i have a good illustration skill but it still lack professionalism.. well, shock but its like Whoah, if he told me that, i've got to work hard. well, yea, hearing that comment kinda puts me down but at the same time it gives me alot of things to learn. I'm not taking it in a bad way but at least it gives me something to improve cause so far i have not receive any different comments besides being detailed, etc, all the comments that i know about..
Being away from home, well, one thing for sure that i miss was my friend's dog that we constantly kidnapped >< but yea, of course, i miss the friends and my family in Malaysia but at the same time having fun in the UK. but won't be going back for Christmas, I want to but whats the point cause im going to be here for only a year. so might as well make the most of it.

OH! I BOUGHT AN XBOX! MUA HAHAHAHA!! IM SO HAPPY!!!!! *rolls on the floor with blood gushing out from my mouth* Xbox marathon during christmas!!! MUAHAHAHAH!! (but of course i will go out!)
played a game called Resident evil 5 with Jon, we were laughing, yelling at each other. but yea, we only play during the weekends. and work hard in the weekdays. i miss playing latest games on consoles. omg.... it was so torturing to see new games coming out and i couldn't play it last time cause i didn't have the latest playstation! but now!! mua hahahahah!!! not that i didn't like my playstation 2 or wii but its the people who makes the games have already stop making em.. so yea, blame em :P

Wicked Hairstyles

2011-10-20T07:48:00.002+08:00

Currently, im getting sick of my hairstyle. I use to be very experimental with my hair by getting different haircuts all the time during my foundation time but then slowly i didn't get to experiment with it cause as the I was overflowed with projects that came in like a big tsunami just hit, experimenting hairstyles was the last thing on my mind.... but when im free (or procrastinating at the moment or looking in the mirror) i realize i have been sticking to the same hairstyle for quite some time and want to have some changes to it. well, the blue hair colour changes it but still the pattern of my hair or maybe the splitting is getting a little boring for me. If i could i would definitely want to get these kind of hairstyles!

I love the long hair with blue. so i just need to grow my hair and pull everything back huh? well, easier said than done. my hair grows back slowly if i want it long again...

Besides that hairstyle, im crazy over Pink's hairstyle as well! well, one of em actually, not all of them :P

I WANT THIS HAIRSTYLE!! but i don't know whether it would suit me (T-T)
oh well, i would definitely try it one day!

just got to find the right timing :P

Here I go

2011-09-20T21:09:00.002+08:00

Time really goes by so fast when your having a fun time in your own homeland. Seriously, in a blink of an eye(yes, a common phrase..) its the day! well, tomorrow is the day where I'm going to UK to continue my studies. but of course, my family is coming along (yay!) that way, i could spend more time with them and help me out with settling down in my own place. well, I am excited about this, staying in another country and living on your own but at the same time u start to feel that you'll miss the people that you won't be seeing for awhile. we have to move on and make new friends but of course don't forget the old ones cause they worth more than gold. Peeps! whoever is reading this at all... I'll miss you all!

The Sketchbook Project 2011

2011-08-23T22:53:00.004+08:00

I have participate this project and I am excited to finish it! I'm also excited on what stories will pop in my head and how the images would form in the book! Though I'm not a professional illustrator, I am having fun doing this :) Glad that Ms Yee Von told me about this project! Well, you could say this really pushes u to keep practicing your drawing skills and think of a new idea every day. Through this project, you could say you have free publicity to alot of places... well sort of. you just have to pay the entry fee and the sketchbook price. So far i have done 3 stories.. hm.. alot more to go! Go me! :D I hope that when people see my sketchbook they would be thrilled and excited to read my stories :)

Basically, I just want people to have fun reading my stories :P thought its more like a short story.

FUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-08-18T17:02:00.005+08:00

im seriously piss cause i feel so rush to complete my visa... and its because of the late arrival of CAS letter and the transcript... im just wondering why does it take so long for them to send it.. im still piss and stressed out from waiting for the original transcript... called the person in charge from KBU. he raise his voice with me so i raise my voice as well.... cause he say i ask things that he could not answer (well yea, technically, that person was right but still no need to raise ur voice! asswipe....)then the person background was so noisy i couldn't hear what that person say.... it was so freaking annoying... then he explain things again... finally understand the shits...

sometimes when people throw loads of information at me it just cause me headaches sometimes cause i have to remember it all clearly... then if u explain it to your parents why is it like this, they would give u a face and start raising loads of question... then u have to call the them again... blah blah... explain... repeat.... ugh... so tired... please come fast u damn transcript!!! i want to finish making my visa before i could not go at all!!! (T_T) i think by the time the VISA comes out, i would probably left 1 week of getting together with friends and preparations for uk.... yes... more rush.... ugh....RRRRAAWWWRR!!

GO ME!

2011-08-03T16:57:00.003+08:00

apparently freedom have to wait a little while longer as i have to finish one more task before i am to be released from the working world. I CAN DO THIS!! JUST A LITTLE MORE!! \(><)/

RELIEVE!!

2011-07-07T10:31:00.002+08:00

well, today (still in the office) i came here early than the others as usual.. except for one person... she's always early... so i decide to check my results online and i was sort of scared all the time when i want to check whether my result is posted up... so i was kind of expecting a dramatic drop in my grade but turns out pretty ok. i drop a little bit so im fine with it.. i still got a B so im quite pleased with it. yay! go me! :P

so yea, wanted to post this happy feeling im having now. XD

(more like procrastinating!!)

There goes my weekend (T_T)

2011-07-01T23:06:00.001+08:00

Bad day cause of someone? What do I feel? hmmm....

2011-06-24T19:57:00.006+08:00

SCREAMS!!!

2011-06-23T14:37:00.005+08:00

ok, im in the office... better write this quick.. lol, ok the way i said it, it sound like someone is gonna come and kill me or something and im like writing clues to give you a head start or some weird suicide note thing.... anyways, alone in the office, everyone went out for lunch so i thought i could watch a few clips of some scary game that i intended to buy and play it with my sisters, one's a creature of the light known as lightbringer, and the other is a craaazzyyy hippie. so anyways, i found this game call Ju-on the grudge wii game at 1 mont kiara and i know how those two like a good scare sometimes so i thought : hey why not i get this game for them? so i ordered the game but it never came back to me after that.. thank god i didn't pay for it first.. screw the shit out of em... forgive my language. but thanks to a friend of mine, i ask him to get it for me (of course i'll pay you back in case you are reading this to the one who is concern...)

so before i get the game and start playing it, i thought i could like check on it. and here i am! in the office! ALONE. so i watch the video and apparently its quite scary and creepy but i still want to play it. the scary part is that... after watching a few clips of it and some walkthroughs in youtube, the office seems a little creepy now... cause there is sudden flickering of the light.... and ... funny sounds which i have no idea where it come from... ok, i attract weird things.... thats not good... lol. its alright.. im cool.. everything is gonna be fine... everything is gonna be alri- ZOMGS! WHEN ARE THE OTHERS COMING BACK!!! loooool....

ok, seriously, my reaction is not like that. XD

HISSS

2011-06-16T22:54:00.004+08:00

I just hiss at my boss in fb. how cool is that? LOL

well, he gave me a whiplash first in FB so its fair.

Awesome Church Youth Camp

2011-06-11T22:45:00.005+08:00

alright folks! I'm back! with a cold and a bloody headache! but it was worth it cause I had such an awesome time at the church youth camp! It was great that I had alot of fun than expected :D and it was more fun when my high school friends came along with me. Meet new friends and get to know better some old ones. have a little fun game of Angel and Mortal. ah, yes, the wonderful/fun game of angel and mortal~~

apparently we are suppose to draw a name for the angel and mortal game. which i did not draw for the first day... bad me... but i did on the 2nd day so its ok :P ok, the whole point of this is that your the angel (practically everyone is) and the name you draw will be your mortal. And as an angel, you are to bless your mortal with gifts, introduce him/her to new friends, send him/her some motivation notes or do something good for your mortal. BUT!!!!! you must do it discreetly! do not let ur mortal know who is her/his angel~~~i thought it was a drag at first but i realize it was actually a fun game. I like my angel alot(though i have no idea who that person was), my angel is very active and keep on giving me nice things such as small tidbits, and the other two time was that she ask someone to pass me the food she wants to give me during lunch or breakfast. it was sweet~~ as for me (yes, I am an angel too and i bet most of you out there who know me reading this are either laughing or in shock now) i had a hard time finding my mortal..... so i was thinking this must be how the real angel works... finding ur own mortal can be hard as there is a lot of people crowding over... ok, my gift to my mortal was my very own drawing and a motivation note (some of my friends were wondering I could give em my drawing so if they like it, i guess my mortal would like it) i was scurrying around looking for my mortal, looking at name tags and group (i guess i creep some people out with this method of searching... AHAHAHAH) and then!!! I FOUND MY MORTAL!!!! a 13 year old girl~~ :D she looks sweet~~ so i ask one my friends to be my delivery person and it was cute to see my mortal looking around for her angel... huhuhuhu~~~ i bet she would never expect it from me as i dress all dark looking and the drawing is an angel on a tree with halo and a note there~~ i wonder if i shock my angel as I am her mortal.... ok, that was just a side game during camp.

ok, first day, arrive at the resort, me and my friends were excited as we have the room to ourself so we can go crazy and all. as we reached our room, the door was open and .... everything was in a mess.... me and my friends were in doubt thinking that this was our room... we checked and its hard to face the truth sometimes.... but no matter, my friend call house keeping and she made it clean again~ yay~~ then we went down to have some games and all. it was fun playing some blind man game cause we were shouting out lungs out to our blind team mates(they are blind folded) and it was funny that sometimes they misheard u and went the other way XD there is also flying fox but i didn't wanna go again as i had a painful experience when it comes to letting you go to the ground... you could say the rope was pulling me up... the dudes were pulling me down... so yea... i had to feel a little pain below there.... ANYWAYS, then we had to divide in groups and talk about tomorrow's performance night, which are the theme song and the skit.

i couldn't do the theme song so i join skit team ( i can be really dramatic so this would suit me better) the director was my church friend who likes to draw as well but she couldn't handle most of the team members ( i dunno why...) so sometimes, this is where age comes in... MUA HAHAHA!! yes.. me and my friends were the oldest there.... so i ended up taking the director role although i already told her i will guide her since the role of the director was given to her by our pastor.... but she insist that i became the director and she was sort of in a panic mode as well... so yea, it was fun directing them and most of em told me that i look very young ( oh ho ho ho ho) and they can't believe im 20 years old :P the way i act and all.... ehee hee hee...

will upload the video here if i know how...

the 2nd day~~~ had nice breakfast, went for sermon as well, after that lunch, THEN! it was the amazing race game~~ it was fun as we had to go through game/obstacles together as a team. the most funniest game i find it fun was to turn over the cloth that was on the ground BUT! everyone... and i mean EVERYONE in the team must be on top of the cloth while turning over the cloth. me and another guy were at the end of the cloth so we had to turn it over first and well... get ready for more people to come over to our side... and we had to support them one by one.... the bigger ones were all in the middle and it was difficult to support em all when they come to our side.. i was already supporting 4 girls to make sure THEY don't fall out of the cloth otherwise we have to start over... and omg... it was hard.. i must have build up a muscle for that!! and no one was supporting me i had to rely on my legs to keep myself from stepping out but thank god the other dude was in the same scenario as me so he support me by putting his arm around shoulder and push the other people forward... it was hot as well cause i could feel his and the other girls body heat... it was so hot.. everyone was sweating... and most of the other games in the amazing race ...well....we cheat most of it. MUA HAHAHA. after the amazing race game, we had to practice the skit, they are good kids as they know how to cooperate and are willing to listen to my direction. and it was fun having laughs and all. as for the skit, we have to act according to the song like a mime, most of the songs that were given to our team and other team the guy gets the girl. night came, and we ROCK! LOL. everyone skit was either the guy manage to get the girl or not. as for mine~~~~ the guy didn't go the pretty girl but the other girl's best friend who looks like a nerd~~~~ MUA HAHAHAHAHA!! everyone was so shock and they could not stop laughing!!! yea, although we didn't win but everyone remembered ours so its good enough.

well, i could go on and on talking about camp, jokes and stuff but i should stop here cause I'm having a really nasty flu. btw, i think its my fault that some of the people in camp got sick because of me. we had a game of popping other team's balloon while keeping your balloon up in the air... so i had a flu and my friend just pass me a balloon to blow... and i did... so i gave it to my friend, she tied it up... then i told her,

" don't let anyone pop this balloon... it;s fill with my germs." LOL

so i guess someone pop that particular balloon and it spread to some people already cause on the 3rd day, some was already sniffling and blowing out mucus :P

anyways, will upload a pic next time on the next post with more talking on the Church Youth Camp.

I got it :D

2011-06-08T19:22:00.002+08:00

Receive from a call from a designer that I got the job, although i kinda had it figure it out that I would be hired :P (I don't think it good idea to think like that sometimes cause who knows they might reject you) anyways, quite relieve as well that he called me and say he would take me in(ok, that sound like im homeless...) so im quite excited to start. Oh, i decided to start after my church camp :P since i won't be doing anything for quite a while, might as well start working. I'm excited yet nervous cause I would be working in the office (@ @) not to mention im working at the same place as my eldest sister. but she;s in the marketing department and well, different building (i think) so don't be surprise that you might now be able to reach/call me.... cause i might chuck out my handphone out of the window due to my sister's never ending phone call. LOL.

well, its not bad as well that im working at the same place as my sister (so that she could pay for my meals. MUA HAHAHA)hmm.. it is interesting to find out about people's characteristic when they work, like either they are annoying, backstabbing or nice.

the designer who I am going to teach and learn from is not bad looking so yea~~~ oh ho ho ho ho~~~~ just the cigarette smell that just kinda ruin his image.... (=.=)

RAWR!!!LEAVE ME BE!!!!!!

2011-06-01T19:28:00.001+08:00

To do list

2011-05-21T21:20:00.012+08:00

The end of my year 2 has finally come~ here comes the holidays~~ so might as well make use of it before i start crying for another holiday to come when my year 3 start. Therefore, there will be a list of things to do~!!

1. ~~Get piercings - (im scared but I want those accessories!)~~

2. Paint 2 Canvas ( hey, i like painting but the cost of canvas now is bloody hell expensive)

[1 more to go]

3. Make 4 dolls - THE REBORN OF MR PENGUIN! why four? i have no idea myself. but c'mon, long holiday, make more dolls!

4. attend church camp - yea yea~~ fun time with mah friends! but of course i'll listen to the talk *cough*

5. Hang out with high school friends - missing em already, me old buddies~~

6. Torture midget - i dunno, i just felt like putting that in and hey, its a tough job *wink*

7. make an animation movie - wanted to make a stop motion movie >< but i need to practice on my crafting skill

8. make a clay character

9. watch alot of anime

10. have a badminton game with friends

11. ~~kidnap friend's dog~~

12. Go back Sabah

13. complete a journal (hey, can't be lazy now! )

14. write a story (get my creative juice flowing)

15. draw a storybook (always wanted to draw out the stories that me and my sisters thought of)

16. draw a parody of silent hill characters :P

17. use illustrator to do an illustration (at the same time i'm practicing using illustrator)

18. have lunch with the lecturers ( with them not eating them and hey, they are fun people :D )

19. Take lots of pictures

20. Take lots of videos

21. Update my deviantart account with my drawings

22. ~~get an intern job ~~щ(ﾟДﾟщ) WHYYY!!! :P~~~~

hmm... so far thats all i can think of... if i have anymore things i want to do, i shall add em to the list! XD

Goth :P

2011-04-03T19:52:00.005+08:00

hm... i wish to visit a goth club (hey, it sounds like golf club...) because I just want to see how it looks like from the inside. did some reseach about it and im quite curious on people's behaviour. sounds dangerous but won't know till I try to go there :P

I'm not really a pure genuine Goth cause I still dress in different colour and not all the time i wear black( ok, SOMETIMES i don't wear black). I don't put white foundation on my skin to make myself look pale (but will try one day), I don't put on heavy eyeshadow make up (but im learning~ but i won't wear em all the time as it could damage my skin), wearing black nail polish is no big deal cause anyone can wear em.. as for my bling blings~ well, you could say... not enough bling :P LOL. And I don't have heavy dressing (although it looks like fun dressing like em) I listen to rock and metal but not as hardcore as em.. i still like listening to instrumental music... I won't abandon my religion just to be a goth as well...so im like..semi-goth. LOL. a goth halfling you might say.

I'm not trying to be a pure genuine goth but you could say it is fun dressing up like one. you could see how people react to you when they see you all black with funny hair colour and lots of scary bling on you. kids would go, MOMMY MOMMY! OMG~! THAT GIRL IS SO SCARY! I THINK SHE EAT KIDS FOR BREAKFAST!! (im just exaggerating on the whole eating part)

I don't wear black lipstick cause i dun like em.. well, i think they are nice but i ain't going to try em.. looks funny when i imagine myself with dark lipstick..

well, like most of the adults and lecturers i met, they say its a phase. its annoying at first cause they would go like, oh~ i was like that once too~ when i was your age~ blah blah *I turn to bones and spiders will start spinning their cobwebs around me*

well, i won't argue with em. they could be right though that it could be a phase or it could be just what i like to dress. not being a dark person but just dressing for fun. i dun mind changing myself to another thing.

who knows, i could be a hippy in the future, smoking marijuana and going high. lol. im just kidding btw..

Whats wrong with me?

2011-03-28T19:39:00.005+08:00

Can I just let it all out? Can I just scream? its bottled up inside me. But I'm too afraid to let it all out and lose it all. all this anger, sadness, loss and frustration. it just makes me more agitated. I blame it on the side effects of the PMS-ing but that just seems partial of it.

tears build up and flows down, my head is now just full of thoughts, it gives me a bloody headache all the time. Im afraid of letting myself out and throw it on those who did nothing to me. I didn't mean to get angry at you or throw it on you. something just bothers me and I really wish i could just say it but I can't, I won't and I never will.

I won't go further into details because I don't want to reveal everything. lets just leave it that way. Saying some stuff here just to let me calm down.

Listening friends

2011-03-08T23:42:00.006+08:00

Everyone wants someone to listen to them

to be there for them

didn't need to ask them to be there

cause they know

they will be there

automatically, they will come to you

they wouldn't wait for u to ask

cause they care and know u need them.

they wouldn't leave even though u brush em off

they would stay and listen

wipe your tears that you shed.

if it wasn't good enough

they would cry along with you

feel all the heart aches you bear

sometimes friends put up walls

not to shut you out or push you away

but waiting

for you to break it down and come

if you listen,

not just to preachers, teachers or seniors

you'll learned a great deal of that someone.

truly, good friends are difficult to leave and hard to find and impossible to forget

thats what I love about good friends, best friends and close friends

a title thats worth more than gold

true friendship doesn't always mean being there when your convenient,

they will be there when ur not

and when silence between friends is comfortable.

but most of all, they listen.

Hidden Object Games

2011-03-03T19:43:00.002+08:00

After a tedious week of projects, I have an urge to play games and so happen to be the hidden object games. browsing through the internet and came across a game called Dying For Daylight. tried the trial version and it got me hooked. buts its trial so i only can play 1 hr!!!!

after the 1hr period is up, i got obsesses into trying to find that game!!!! oh god, the humanity!

anyway, thanks to my uncle who told me about a certain website where i can download games, i was on cloud nine!

apparently, i played the game too fast so i ended up finishing it in 1 day... not good... so i browse through again looking for more hidden objects game and found stray of souls. it was creepy but i kinda like the story plot and the creativity of the dollhouse :) i recommend anyone to go download and play it cause its seriously fun.

the homepage of the game. kinda cool cause it gives off an eerie feeling with its music :)

I got spooked at the doll at first cause its all voodoo-ish and it smiles..but after a while, i find it kinda cute :D

im kinda piss off what is going to happen to the cute voodoo doll :(

Dying For Daylight homepage :)

LOOK AT THE CUTE LITTLE DOGGIE!!!!

Dahlia.

Love her sarcasm :D

Hello? Anybody there?

2011-02-15T13:00:00.004+08:00

Sometimes i just feel that I'm talking to a person who is a really thick wall made out of hard bricks that can never be heard unless u beat the crap out of it ( i know violence isn't going to solve anything but hey it works sometimes and what i just said just now doesn't make sense... XD) even though i shouted out they would be just too busy in their own world. so its annoying that people don't pay attention sometimes. but sometimes its fun to make use of this opportunity by simply saying crap stuff till they heard u like I just broke your expensive vase in the house, i had a tattoo on my ass with Johnny Depp Face !!!! I put alcohol in your food everyday to see you get wasted!! I spit at the food and i put it back in the fridge for you too eat it!!! ( non of these actually happen, they are just crappy examples) but yea, if u have anyone trying to speak up or something, give em a chance and listen. who knows it could be something important but you were too ignorant to listen. SO OPEN UR EYES AND EARS!! LEND THEM YOUR EARS!! ( I don't mean literally by taking out your ears and throw it to them...)

The great awareness comes slowly, piece by piece

2011-02-12T23:20:00.004+08:00

I better just write this down before the feelings gone. I have my doubts in my artwork when it was submitted along with Jon's and Jeannie's handcrafts to the Pipit. I wasn't that confident and I try to stay positive and believe its ok. however, Jon and Jeannie pointed out my mistakes. and my sister also gave me some critique on my artwork that was submitted ( i rarely ask her abt this cause i want to learn on my own and try not to rely on her too much otherwise i wouldn't learn at all) . You could say it did bring my spirits down. no, i wasn't mad at them. but just like...whoah... where did my motivation go?? I thought abt it the whole day. and i told myself it was rather silly to keep thinking and feeling like S.H.I.T. in fact, im glad that they actually say something cause otherwise i wouldn't learn a bloody thing. i would probably stick to being bad at it! of course, its best not to take it to heart but reconsider their critique.

well, its a learning process to learn to accept opinions. im usually quite stubborn on this but hey, im learning.

as i look back, i thought of many things i have done, although i didn't win anything but i was actually impressed like : hey, you know what? i actually join something. i actually did something without saying oh its a waste of time, i can't do it, blah blah blah..... negative comments... ( I dun usually say these cause its really bad for you) you could say, im proud of myself, i did something, yep, i didn't win but hey, i learn something and im actually quite satisfied :) i have no regrets and its actually a good feeling but that does not mean that u have to keep failing!! lol, u have to strive to do ur best. but try not to kill urself!!

Experience : that most brutal of teachers. But you learn, my God do you learn.

quote by C.S Lewis

(the quote was funny and true)

Girls Outing

2011-02-08T18:16:00.004+08:00

Had an all girl outing and a great time with Jeannie, Jean and Angela.

I like how we meet each other in the mall especially for Angela cause she was standing right in the middle of the GSC cinema floor. and she stands out with her height and she seriously look like a model to me and she looks so adorable with her happy look. she is SO tall. envy her height~~~ I told Jean that I'm going to introduce her to a new friend. and she calls her "fresh meat" . when Jean met Angela, she was SPEECHLESS! LOL. she did not expect Angela to be tall and she was well... stoned! LOL.

then Jeannie arrive with her cute smile~ XD ( am i making u shy Jeannie? Am I? Am I? >:D)

bought the movie ticket for Shaolin and its time for lunch before movie. ate at Gardens Food Court and Farnaz was there with her parents. lol, small world eh? come to think of it. it was the first time for me to see her in a dress. anyway, during lunch we were talking about past times and funny moments we had in our lives. really miss face to face conversation with friends where we can really laugh instead of just typing "LOL" . ohh!! bought a book by Karen Maitland "The Owl Killers" yay. i plan to buy it for her but i dun think she would want to keep it.. i think i shall keep it and say its mine... she have too many books anyways XD

The movie Shaolin was really really good. really enjoyed the movie. but JEAN always wreck the cool part... its like there was an awesome part going on then Jean would ruin it by saying FAKE!! i control myself from hitting her...after the movie, we basically just chat while walking around. of course we aren't going to stay there long so we decide its time to go back. Angela send me back home so we had chat more in the car. was fun talking to her and hope for another outing like that. didn't do much but we had fun :D

P.S : I am sort of tired and blur writing this cause I just got back from that outing... yea.. LOL XD

Gimme Horror!

2011-02-05T16:45:00.004+08:00

Going all giddy watching horror stuff. searching for more. apparently, its also cause im running low on horror juice all of a sudden. can't think normal ( well, i was never thinking normal at the first place) basically, looking around for inspiration. kind of facing an artist block. not a writer's block cause im not really much of a writer. i do write stories but according to some friends of mine, its more funny than scary. more like NOT SCARY AT ALL!! i really love reading horror books, tragic mythology and gore movies ( well, not much gore cause its just ruins the whole mood later) ok, back to the topic. i can't seem to draw what i wanted to draw. my hand does not want to move its like in deep sleep.. or my hands dead... didn't like that feeling cause i love to draw. hmm.. i think i shall distress myself by killing stickman... they are fun to kill :D

Really wanna know what i feel now?

2011-02-02T01:29:00.004+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOW IM REALLY HOLDING MY WRATH BACK BEFORE I START EXPLODING REALLY REALLY BAD!!!!!!

COOPERATE WILL YA???

yes, im becoming hysterical and going bonkers. pardon my moment of madness.

Concrete Angel

2011-01-30T01:24:00.002+08:00

This music video moves me to tears. (T T)

Its located at the bottom of this page.

can't use the better quality video...sad...

so this quality will have to do.

if you want to view it in a better quality

go find it in youtube.

i like the singer's hair by the way :D

and she has lovely eyes

and beautiful voice XD

Fuckin Perfect :)

2011-01-26T23:26:00.003+08:00

Made a wrong turn, once or twice

Dug my way out, blood and fire

Bad decisions, that's alright

Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood

Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down

Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated

Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel

Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect

Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing

You're f*ckin' perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong

Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead

So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!

Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game

It's enough! I've done all I can think of

Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same

Oh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel

Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect

Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing

You're f*ckin' perfect to me

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear

The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer

So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time

Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere

They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair

Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time

Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that..?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby..!

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel

Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect

Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel

Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me

You're perfect, you're perfect!

Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing

You're fuckin' perfect to me...

Pump!

2011-01-08T17:24:00.005+08:00

Feeling my passion for art is pumping up although my right thumb is in critical condition... but the worst is yet to come ( i'm not going to say it cause it just makes me even more scared) anyway, still in the first month of year 2011 and there's few event that comes up. firstly its the CUTOUT magazine competition story of a black cat where you draw a picture that tells a tale of a black cat. so im putting myself to the test into participating this competition. it doesn't really matter i win or not cause im trying to discover more about myself through this event.

another event that is coming up is the Pipit market. i was rather happy that it comes early this year otherwise i would be devastated that it come during october onwards cause i won't be here by then and i won't get a chance to sell my stuff. so yea. another self discovery.

im going to try to do my best in these events and most of all, have fun~!

P.S : im suppose to finish some damn assignment but im here procrastinating ~! MUA HAHAHAHAH!! :D

Christmas Charity

2010-12-18T12:36:00.007+08:00

Was meant to post this yesterday but I was so tired after yesterdays activity... Yesterday, we had some Christmas Charity event for the orphans that were coming to KBU. IT WAS SO DAMN FUN. Really glad that i volunteered for it.

I actually just volunteered for the face painting but i ended up helping more but I didn't mind cause i was having fun doing it. Firstly, we had the face painting event.

we were actually getting ready the things we needed. but after that, we were supposed to be on standby for the kids that were coming... we ended up playing the face paint on each other :P

Painted on friends face and lecturer face too! mua hahaha. its good that they were sporting enough to have their face paint XD

lots of playing... then the kiddies came!!! woohoo!! its funny sometimes that kids would make hard request... there's this one boy who was asking me to paint naruto on his face! i was like SHIT! i gave suggestion that i would give him whiskers that naruto has but he didn't want it cause it would make him look like a cat :P so he was reasonable and said that he wanted samurai on his hand. so ok.. fine.. how on earth am i gonna do a samurai... so i "negotiate" with the kid and said that i would paint the shadow of the samurai and he agreed XD but after that, he wanted batman ON HIS WHOLE FACE!! I was like WTF!!! then i said how about the symbol of batman instead??? on the cheek!!! ( i totally forgot how batman symbol look like.. all i know its a bat...) thank god he didn't mind... then because of one other kid wanted a dragon... he wants a dragon too!! ahhhh!!! lots of things happen actually but if i continue i think i would fill up the whole page.. so yea, cutting short on the face paint.

Then Ms Yvonne needed some extra help with the hand printing so we volunteered again. Ms Yvonne told us what should be done and told us to guide the kids on how and where to do it. after the briefing, we help with setting the paint on the plastic plates for kids. the funny thing is... we ended up playing with the paint instead before the kids could play with it XD

so it was a mayhem!!! A PAINT WAR!!!everyone and i really meant EVERYONE start dipping their fingers and palm on the paint and start grabbing, printing and poking each other! even the lecturers were playing with us XD Especially Ms Yee von.. she was....WILD with the colours... no one better touch or come near her cause she would just touch u with paint...

then kids start coming in. at first it was okay... ( although they were reluctant to leave cause their turn ended) me and jeannie guide them to the washing area outside the lobby. i was at the front and jeannie was at the back. but once u let them see the outside world, 3 of the boys ZOOM out... running around!! jeannie was already busy handling 2 kids to guide them... i had to chase 3 kids who were hyperactive... brought em back, guide em back to their seats. so jeannie had become the babysitter for kids who were done with the hand printing. while i was busy guiding them to wash their hands and watching for kids who were done and watch out for any runaway kids... while i was waiting, i saw Jeannie was holding one kid down! Jeannie was shouting my name ," STEPHANIE!!! HELP ME!!! THIS KID KEEP RUNNING AWAY!!!" i actually find the scene cute cause jeannie is so small yet she can hold the kid down who is smaller than her... it was so damn funny and cute... that kid ended up being jeannie's kid XD hahah!! and she had to run back and forth to catch the the other runaways XD

Mei Yuin is good with kids, same goes to Kau. Carmen, Mickey, Pei Rung and Tze Pei aren't that bad either.. Tze Pei also has a kid and its a girl. Tze Pei really behaves like a mother cause she was kind with the kids. i have no kids but i do gain kids compliments :D most were asking about my hair... whether did i "Paint" it... some called me teacher blue hair... it was so damn funny and cute. one kid actually ask me to carry him... awww.... he was so cute.... XD after the event, all of us were exhausted!!!

I don't think i can fit all the story in here so im just gonna end it here. overall, the Christmas Charity event was FUN and GREAT! tired but it was worth it for doing good to others :)

Don't have any photos cause it was mostly captured by Jeannie and Yin Teng.

Happy Holidays Peeps~!

Movie marathon

2010-12-11T00:31:00.005+08:00

Had been watching horror movie. apparently.... ALL FAILED to make me feel anxious when watching it cause they are either predictable or just bad at it. XD

1st horror movie for this week, thursday : My Soul To Take

its more on the thriller genre than the horror genre... whats there to be scared about (= =) besides being stabbed...

the movie is predictable and the blood was fake... how? TOO MUCH BLOOD! lol! and the main bad guy in the end was kinda obvious and common... your best bud.. lol

2nd movie friday : Marebito

IT'S NOT EVEN HORROR!!!! and it was been directed by the guy who did the movie The Grudge( = =") RAWR!! i expect interesting plot but nooooo.... i got some dude who is stupid enough to cut himself to feed the girl who only drinks blood... the whole movie was kinda boring... one thing i like about the movie was only one of the background music which has the piano instrument in it.

3rd movie same day (friday) : Sick Nurses

The title of it sound already perverted... well, it sort of involve some romance and horror. but its too dramatic... it involves some gay and lesbians scenes. the gay guy seems obsess and he's so in love with his partner that he is willing to change his sex. lots of scandalous affairs... the funny thing about this horror movie is that the ghost know how to pose each time he/she kills the people who murdered him/her.

overall, i have been watching movies that doesn't scare me at all... so far no nice plot in the movie... im lazy to find more horror movie so for now i want to watch Narnia!!!

didn't get to watch it with my cousin cause we didn't have enough time... we need to shop for his mom's gift and he wants to get her new shoes/slippers and he needs my help in choosing the right ones.We haven't even eaten yet. so we went food hunting before shoe hunting... took us quite a while to decide where to eat and it took us a longer time to find the right shoes/slipper. so luckily didn't buy the ticket first otherwise the tickets would go to waste... haiz... i was looking forward to watch it with my cousin cause he can be really funny in the cinema... XD

we still have like 30 minutes to kill in the mall so we went present hunting. didn't get any presents cause none were interesting enough. so no presents BUT more ideas for gifts~!! woo~! so exciting~! XD

Its 2 in the morning, Good morning~!

2010-12-09T01:42:00.004+08:00

early morning yet im not in bed and its pitch black. Listening to some indie music that relaxes me and does not makes me feel tired or anything.

As u can see, i have change my layout of the blog. got tired of it... of everything black and well... its also a distraction from my "homework" (><)

Now that im completely alone ( well, alone as in everyone is asleep now i presume... in the house...) It gives me time to think on christmas ( wow, I can think about christmas when my deadline is approaching... naughty naughty!) Luv christmas cause its the same thing what i will say again last year that its the time of getting together and have fun. the joy of giving and receiving presents from friends and family. Giving presents can be fun cause its the joy of giving and showing ur appreciation towards that person. wow, that means i have lots of ppl to appreciate! (@ @) lol, but I'll be happy too~! (^_^) not a spendthrift type of person but once in a while for special occasion is fine... which reminds me im gonna spoil my cousin today with lots of things, food and uh.. well, basically anything for him to have a great time. (T T) there goes my money (T T)

P.S : HOPING THAT JOSEPH WILL KEEP HIS PROMISE OF TREATING US POPCORN!!!! XD if u ever read this Joseph... thank you~! (>_<) kekekekeke

Face Paint

2010-12-03T19:47:00.003+08:00

Painting my cousin face was fun. It also depends on WHOSE face your painting otherwise it won't be fun... thank god my cousin is quite open minded about these things. he's even daring enough to do some gay poses. but he's not gay. he's just fun. LOL. now he's the one who wants his face to be paint. not only that. i have influence him to colour his nails black. ever since showing him some scary clips and pictures of candy spooky by joseph he starts to get interest in these dark fashion and make up. lol, i have made a member of the family turn into a goth lover!! and he's my cousin!! LOL. a new member of the dark side~! mua hahaha! its fun having another person to do this with. too bad he's only staying for a while otherwise it would be fun everyday at home with him there to play with XD. ok, gonna paint his face again tonite. XD he already chose what kind of face paint he want~! LOL

Fullhouse Cafe

2010-11-20T00:11:00.007+08:00

Saw Jeannie's picture of herself and her friends celebrating her high school friend's birthday at some cafe call Fullhouse. Jeannie told me herself that it was a nice place to go but the food there was pricey.. well, nice place sometimes gotta be pricey.. thats a sad fact..

really wanna go there one day with friends. but of course it depends on time and transportation...

Jeannie was shock that i wanted to go that kind of place cause she say it is so girlish for me.. well, thats an advantage of being girl now cause i am a girl so its ok XD NO SHAME!!! lol... (although i don't dig girly stuff but i will make this one an exception...)

I mean it has that classy look!! XD

actually, there are tons of cafes i want to go to but i prefer to have friends to enjoy it with. the more the merrier~!

(T_T) and yea... What aggravates me the most is that some cafes price are extremely outrageously that u wish u could throw a rock at their heads for it... ( thats for me but i don't know about you people :D)

so that makes another reason why i don't go to cafes...( even though i want too :P)

I just took these photos from the internet.. apparently this person really knows how to take pictures well.. like the birdcage~!

I luv this pic.. look at the layout of the place (*_*)

( images of people are blurred in my head)

me like the fountain~! I SEE CAKES!!

mushroom soup~! GIMME!! :P

Black Eyed Peas...Nostalgic

2010-11-14T15:01:00.004+08:00

I decide to put a stop into listening to metal, punk, hard techno or any music that i usually listen to... ( temporarily :P)

anyway, I feel laid back all of a sudden (not a good sign.. laziness is bound to come in...) I couldn't find any laid back music then my sis sent me some black eyed peas music video link "Imma Be" (their music video is cool :P)

then i thought of their old music. so look through their old ones and yea. i like the feeling of it. its so...nostalgic. i used to listen to them when i was a kid although i wasn't really into them. but looking back to their songs and music video. well, u could say it gives a nostalgic feeling about the past where life wasn't so into technology...you could check it out and find their songs and maybe get what im trying to say :) now modern songs are all (well not all) about sex, drugs, break ups, swearing against people, heart aches, emos, anger, but most of all the... the genre of the songs i keep hearing in the radio are all about LOVE!! oh gawd.. getting sick of hearing love songs about like "oh this girl diss me" or "this boy diss me "or "he's a jerk" or "be my prince romeo"(nothing against taylor swift by the way.. and the words I just said are not the real lyrics but usually are the meaning behind certain song lyrics)... yea, they do love songs at the old days but its not as tragic as the modern times now...

Gotta hand it to the black eyed peas songs ( their old songs) it really gives an impact ( to me) really wish they would continue it that way but now they are all.... techno...(-_-) but still... they ain't that bad.

Taboo ( the dude all the way to the right) is COOL ( luv his hair)

Will.i.am ( the dude next to Taboo) he looks like a funny dude to me

anyway, they are cool people XD

oh, i like their taste in fashion and their "song style" in their music video as well :D

its so funny and cool.. AWESOME :D

by the way, if you people ever listen to the music in my blog, im playing one of their songs now but its all the instruments. no lyrics :P

Tired Mind

2010-11-09T21:25:00.003+08:00

tired yet motivated to do my project. maybe cause i want to do better this time since i quite hate my first project outcome( wow.. usually i don't hate my outcome of my work.. this is a first...lol) nothing to say just feel like throwing what's ever on my mind right now. i feel so... insane.... i dunno why but i just feel that I am not thinking straight at the moment (>_<) probably my mind is just tired from thinking. im not stressing myself cause there is nothing to benefit from stressing myself besides pushing urself to the limit till u break down and cry like a a little baby :P ( no offense to ppl who actually breaks down and cry)

right... i have nothing to say now since now my brain is shutting down on its own. im not even sure what the hell im writing here! LOL!

Die Tomorrow

2010-11-05T21:44:00.002+08:00

Nothing lasts forever

So don't you ever take a thing for granted

Have you ever wondered?

What if we could all just die tomorrow

These situations are elevating

Where dreams are lost all hope is gone

We can't go on living like this

Manipulated by information

All right is wrong all wrong is right

We can't go on living like this

The people keep walking

On tracks that are made by fools who don't care

I don't know why we keep damaging ourselves

Nothing lasts forever

So don't you ever take a thing for granted

Have you ever wondered?

What if we could all just die tomorrow

When everything you see is a lie

All you have to do is close your eyes

Listen to the voice inside

Cause our hearts must stay alive

Our hearts must stay alive

All this time

We only tried to find a way to hide it all away

All this time

We only tried t find a way to runaway

Now everything must change

Nothing lasts forever

So don't you ever take a thing for granted

Have you ever wondered?

What if we could all just die tomorrow

When everything you see is a lie

All you have to do is close your eyes

Listen to the voice inside

Cause our hearts must stay alive

It's time now.

Not being emo. I just like the song. yea... its awesome to me :D

already gave a heart attack to my parents when they hear what kind of songs im listening right now...

nothing to say right now. just wanna post the lyrics.

My Midnight Blabber

2010-10-30T02:01:00.003+08:00

Well, its not really midnight but hey its 2am now :p still doing my project but since im almost done i thought i just drop by to my bloggy and blab out everything what i want to say before i forget.

Today was suppose to be a halloween party of the GD club but i did not attend cause i was deprived from my slumber... and i was like a walking corpse. first thing in the morning, was already asked why do i look haggard? = = so yea, maybe that's proof that i was a corpse in the morning... anyway, though i did not attend this once in lifetime halloween party among the GD members, at least i contribute to make something. well, now i dun have to feel guilty for not going :P me and jeannie... well, after we left the party, we were talking and sitting down and almost falling asleep...

To make things worse, i suffered from a sore throat. this is really getting on my nerves.. i practically can't talk. whenever i talk, it hurts like hell. when i just woke up from my rest, and when i want to ask my mom something, it felt like i did not have a voice cause no sound came out. even though i manage to talk a bit, the volume of my voice was really soft... its hard to swallow, drink, eat, sleep and gulping my own saliva... LOL ... so im tired and sick at the same time... just great.... (-_-) ....ok, typing all this thing and only 5 minutes have passed...

Halloween ? I dun think so...

2010-10-25T19:11:00.007+08:00

Suddenly... I'm not looking forward for this month... must be because I'm thinking about my sketch book and the essay draft.. its like now is not the time to think about Halloween... *GASP!!* (BLASPHEMY!!) lol

yea, lots of things to do in 1 week... its really a killer time... the worst part is the essay draft... can't get any right info that i wanted... can't even log in to the damn NTU library e-search thing... our college library does not even have any kind of the books that i wanted... what the hell (and its called a library??)... and i have to rely on google books or go outside and find it... damn it all... yea, sound really irritated right now... my supply of internet source has now been cut off like last time... great... rawr. Should put the wireless router in my room so that i would not need to bug her by invading her room when she's (my sis) not around... but its not gonna happen :(

Screaming Month of Horror

2010-10-21T17:02:00.005+08:00

Lots of events going on this month.

first off... tomorrow is prom.... IM NOT READY!!!! AHHHH!!! wanna cry ah.... T T why mother??? WHY??? now im like so scared to go... wearing something... which im not comfortable with yet...

2nd event on next friday is the college's halloween party. woo hoo. making some brains~! yay! wonder how many people am i suppose to hack their brain off their heads.. hope more of our classmates participate this event to show our unity :P and yea, wear costume as well. i mean what kind of halloween party that does not have any dress up??? its so... boring that way... c'mon! it only happens once a year, might as well give a shot and the party is gonna like last.. like what?? 3-4 hours? thats it. i mean its not like we want u to stay there forever. lol

3rd event on next saturday is another party but this time its my aunt's costume party :D woo..this time my cousins are joining! woohoo!! already tried inviting other people to come and experience once in a lifetime costume party but no... they can't so oh well :P such a fun month (except for one thing that is going to happen in prom....T T *tears of blood*)

*screams in anguish* :P

Not just for vampires

2010-10-17T20:01:00.002+08:00

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This transfusion bag style pouch is easy to carry around in your purse or bag for vampires and humans alike!

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I STEAL FROM THE RICH AND I KEEP IT TO MYSELF!! WHAT AM I ?? :D

2010-10-15T17:29:00.008+08:00

Halloween is almost here and i have not even start off making my costume... o-mi-gosh.. :P

anyway, manage to compromise with my mom about my costume and looks like im gonna go as ROBIN HOOD!! WHO STEALS FROM THE RICH AND FEEDS THE POOR! cliche line however it is ME we are talking about! yes, i do steal from the rich and no, i don't feed the poor with it! LOL! finders keepers, losers..uh.. weepers ( i think...) at least im not going to wear something... dressy(no such word but im just winging it)

my mom and dad are going as pharaohs (the money people)

my eldest sis, mafia (the one who own territories... and gets profit from it)

my 2nd sis, dutchess (the feminine one with lots of money as well...)

me, robin hood ( the poorest one.... who have to steal from rich people like them and keep it to myself! :D)

wow... im the poorest character among my family... why are they all actin bloody rich???

an extra info from my sis.. she told me that robin hood died an awful death due to some betrayal by some lady where she cut his vein and leave him to die.. by the time little John came, he was too late. robin hood is still alive but dying so with his last breathe, he shot the arrow to mark his grave...

its not fair where awesome people died a horrible death...

the pharaohs are evil at one point but they die peacefully...

the mafia's are nasty people as well but they can choose to die and retire peacefully...

The dutchess can be selfish and ALSO die peacefully!

WTH!! im the only one.. AGAIN... with the character that died a horrible death!

lol..

making my own bow and arrow~! and making my a tommy gun for my eldest sis... hers look like a lot of work T T damn... i have to use my sewing skill which im fairly ok... but i just can't stop pricking myself in the finger... this is not sleeping beauty so i won't die from it...

time to put my skill to use and hopefully it will turn out right :D

THE DARK MONTH OF THE YEAR HAS COME

2010-10-01T19:12:00.007+08:00

My time of darkness has come.

It is time where mortals shall bow down

and tremble with fear before me!

The Dark power shall grow,

My Undead Army will arise from their graves

and will TEAR the very FLESH AND BONE OF HUMANS!!

I WILL USE IT

TO DESTROY HUMANITY!!!

AND EVERY EXISTENCE ON EARTH!!

....................

Nah, being dramatic :P anyway, it is the month of HALLOWEEN~! MY FAV MONTH OF THE YEAR! not including octoberfest which is some drinking festival that is happening overseas...

it is the time of the month where evil creatures and monsters (kids and teens) get to do something nasty if they don't receive their offerings ( candy) from the humans (adults).

Hoping my aunty is having another of her wicked Halloween party :P

Pity I couldn't be another creature of darkness for this year halloween :'(

(-_-") The Queen of Light (my mother) told me to be a creature of the light for that day.... which is quite IMPOSSIBLE!!! (>o<) not that im turning rebellious or anything but its like telling me to wear PINK!! OMG!!! *DIES*

Well, you could say she was tired of me being the creature of the dark... :P but that won't stop me!!! so yea, nows the time for costume hunting~! woohoo! or maybe making it (noooo!!)

I Luv Marilyn Manson outfit~! *drools over outfit*

I like this outfit alot. and i like his contact lens colour

He's quite good looking too without his make up on. (last time)

Now, he's quite ... Old and...wrinkly.. but he's still cool~!(with his make up on)

Sticky tape.

2010-09-24T15:13:00.002+08:00

read from left to right. starting from the top. i was lazy to crop it.

I was inspired by the conversation i had with Jen so

I thought why not? draw it out~! :D

Yes, this style is very manga-ish but what can I say

I'm having fun with it :D

writer's block in picture version~!

2010-09-15T18:23:00.005+08:00

(in case you can't read what i wrote on the paper)

Facing a writer's block and I'm not really good with words. Not having any ideas can be frustrating but that's not the only reason why I can't write.

When i was writing chapter 1, the whole condominium power had shut down and it happen exactly how I wrote in the story except certain parts.

In KK, writing chapter 2 in my sister's apartment. This time, the whole KK black out when i wrote its dark outside....

in case you can't read what i wrote

(Now I'm back in KL, I don't want to face another power out... I hate the thought of sleeping without air-con. it makes me feel hot just by thinking about it.)

I wanna play Obscure I and II !!! ( T o T )

2010-08-31T13:45:00.004+08:00

Found an "old" game for PS2 or wii and its a survival horror game. Dunno where I can find it but i hope i do cause i wanna play it during the holidays. ( of course not everyday, omg, I have life too!) And this survival horror game can be played with 2 players. awesomeness... lols. its called obscure. but i think i better go with Obscure the aftermath.. cause this time there is a blondy in a game. dumb blondes. LOLS! (DISCRIMINATION!! *GASP* XD) anyway, watch a few walkthoughs of the game and its quite fun if your playing with a friend... cause instead of being scared or freaked out alone, you have someone there to get freaked out with. lols.

and this is like a team playing thing. so yea. i like team play. XD

though the voice acting in the game are like kinda fake but the story plot, features, graphic(not that great but considered ok.) and characters are nice. lol, they have a goth character in the game too! woohoo! and its a girl so yea! 2 thumbs up! lols! now the problem is that if i bought the game i have no friend to play with... one of my sister hates playing scary games, and the other will be working... (T T) noooooo!!!!!!! and my best friend is all the way in Australia... NOOOOO!!! and i know the Jon and Jeannie will NEVER play it... cause both of them hates scary shit... omg, don't I have anybody who will enjoys scary shits with me??? (T T)

*room flooded with tears*

Blondy fighting with some mutated fat dude... lesson? don't piss of a blondy!

Goth girl in the game.

Blondy and Jocks combine together fighting = One way trip to hell...

Hibernating Bear

2010-08-21T12:15:00.004+08:00

Finished last project... first mission when i reach home....SLEEP! I actually drop all my stuff on the floor (and changed. d-uh!I won't sleep with the clothes i wore out) and lie down on the bed. and wow. i passed out. lol. was quite tired for the past days but managed to endure it. also thanks to jon for waking me up...2 times... even though I was supposed to wake him up but then it was him who ended up waking me ... XP

now holidays are up, its time for fun and well, brush up skills in softwares! and of course, be a hibernating bear during the holidays as well. but it depends though on certain days whether can i be a hibernating animal.. if the other family members didn't wake me... but its ok.. once in a while...be an animal that couldn't wake..

and no... that does not mean i would be dead...

right now, im currently addicted to Fireal song called Halo.( yes, they are my fav band. the singer voice [Caleb] is cool... ) and your hearing it right now.. unless ur the one who always completely off ur speakers and then read my blog (=_=") (curse u for that people... lol.)

Do animals hate me?

2010-08-14T18:46:00.000+08:00

Majority of u people will probably say "YES!! BECAUSE YOUR EVIL! EVEN ANIMALS CAN SENSE YOUR EVIL AURA!"

but really~! i love animals~! well.. some of them...

some just scares the shit out of me or just disgust me... i dunno. it depends... some of my friends wonder why do i treat animals nicer than people? well, to me.. animals seems more fragile... but humans.. i just bashed them up and they still won't die... ( im implying to all my friends from primary to college... especially to the victims of my abuse...) LOL!

yea... this post was because of my sister guinea pig who seems to dislike me... wonder why... LOL.

sigh... sometimes i really wish i have a pet lion... (that way i can teach it to kill anyone who pisses me off...)

I really hate sharks... stupid fishes... thank god that we can eat their fins..

oh.. isn't that adorable? letting people meet their demise...

this is why i never like to go to the ocean.... *shivers* hate sharks... hate sharks... DIE!!

MY NIKON CAMERA HAS RETURN TO ME!! WOOHOO!!!! WELCOME BACK BABY!! XD

2010-07-28T13:01:00.004+08:00

Bon Odori

2010-07-23T11:17:00.015+08:00

Finally finished with the animation project. When doing the project.. well... it was always rushing cause sometimes dunno how long does it take to make an animation and all i know that it takes lots of time. so tend to rush Jeannie and myself as well.. will upload some other time..

for the bon odori, it was quite fun. I went there with my cousin. Supposed to meet up with Jen or Jin Zhen there.. but then.. i got sidetracked. I didn't check my phone cause i couldn't feel the vibration that the my phone is being called or sms-ed. yea, so i spent my time with my cousin and we had fun.

THE FOOD!!..hehe.. yea, most of the time i was there was hunting for the food to see what have i not tasted before or something like that. and its no easy task! you have to break down barricades( people) to reach the water of youth( the food stand). i went behind as well.. thought that i could get a shortcut to get the food quicker.. hehe..(don't do that.. you may piss people off..) behind the scene i saw a LOT of unagi smeared and soak with some sauce.. and i saw melon bread (always wanted to try it) .. tend to see it in anime or manga( OMG, im such an anime otaku(T.T))

There is alot of food that i have not tried cause there was too many people.. dun know how many people had i elbowed.. LOL.. didn't get to try the ice-cream(T.T)... someone was nice enough to fan me( actually he was fanning himself but he's waving is with such big action that i felt cooled..) while we were waiting for the food.. hehehe...

Then there is this culture dance. everyone participate including my cousin.. i didn't cause i want to record them~! hehehehe.. saw some people wearing yukatas. its quite nice but i was thinking whether do they feel hot cause its forever summer here... haha.

By the time we want to make a move, I saw some Gothic people went inside the Bon Odori. their piercing and all was awesome but i wonder are they gonna get kicked out cause of their attire... oh, and its all guys that are going gothic.. WHERE ARE THE GIRLS??

The unagi soak with sauce... to me, it looks like some limbs been hack and soak with sauce >;D

The Melon Bread...

My cousin plotting to hit the kid with some stick. The devil dude selling weapons to people. he's even selling devil horns.. maybe hell is low on souls crisis.. hee hee.

Girls in Yukatas... Guess why I take picture of them >;D

oh, and pay attention the dude at the left. where is he looking at eh? gotcha~!

some important dude giving an opening speech.. the kids behind him are going to do the dancing performance later.

now, i took this picture because of the way she dress... if you look at her socks.. you'll only see that in Japan or in Manga... the typical high school girl style... lols.

P.S my cousin friend bought an Asahi Beer and we drink it.. IT TASTE SO BITTER!!! Teenagers that are younger than me are drinking it with ease as if its like fizzy drink to them..O.O

Going to Bon Odori~!

2010-07-16T20:26:00.005+08:00

Tomorrow its off to Bon Odori. Didn't went last year.. and the year before that... even though was invited by my old school mates, I couldn't go cause its very far and parents thinks its dangerous and all ( HOW??)

yea, this time, im going there with my cousins( YES!!) and jen but she' going there on her own so probably will see her there. I invited Jeannie but i had it coming that she would say no... lol..

Though warned by the midgit with the prediction of her leprechaun saying its boring and all, im still gonna go cause its my first time experience. so yea~!

Oh, lucky Jen gave me the site to read about the bon odori before i got.. cause there is 1 rule that states.... No gothic... (O.O) *GASP!*

means no "ALL BLACK" so.. can't wear any of my bracelets... and i have to wear casual and other colours * hiss!!*... like a typical human being that people will never notice as if he/she wasn't there in this world and part of the air... yes, Im being dramatic now....

but it won't hurt if i just wear a black shirt~! HAHAHA!

To all my friends.. And I mean EVERYONE of you.

2010-06-26T23:01:00.007+08:00

Lately, I noticed a lot of my friends had been feeling rather down or sad in depression.

Some probably had relationship problem

Some probably had pressure or fear on them.

or a whole bunch of problems!

But remember, u can always move forward.

Easier said then done. i know.

But!! Are u willing to just stay in one spot?

Will u let one person ruin your life?

Will u let pressure or fear stop u?

When u yourself are destined to have greater things ahead?

If u are having problems, what are friends for then?

Too often we underestimated the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.

There is no greater blessing than an understanding friend.

A friend who knows our very mood and brighten cloudy days. There is really no greater blessing than a caring friend.

Friendship are like flowers. They grow with time and can stem into something very beautiful. If you don't take care of them. They will wilt away. Friends are very special just like a delicate flower is.

My friends..

i would like you to know you are special today and everyday of life.

More characters..

2010-06-09T18:28:00.006+08:00

I manage to finish off some more characters which is Farnaz, Zaaina and my sister, Karen. i must say im quite please with my photoshop....even though nothing amazing to see yet.. but this time i feel i did a little better then the previous ones cause this time, i consider more about the background. yea, i steal again some images from the internet but i did photoshop on it like cut and paste...effects... etc..

yea, enough with my yapping so here..

Farnaz as the white queen.. uh.. her dress look kinda grey though.. XP

anyway, even though she is the queen.. she still get lost in her very own castle...

Farnaz: "Hmm... I wonder where's the toilet.. I really have to CRAP!"

Zaaina as the blue caterpillar...Why i chose her to be the caterpillar?

well, she's the only one among us who smokes.. XD

Karen as the mad hatter. as u can see.. I SHRUNK HER!!

MUA HAHAHAHAAH!!!!!!!

Jeannie In Underland characters.

2010-06-05T20:08:00.006+08:00

Having a weekend break from project. so... kinda free...a little.. hee hee, but still need to do some little research on illustration. but that can wait for a few minutes..today, my

best fren, casty came over to my place just for fun and we are trying to spend much time together before she left for australia. kinda sad she's gonna go soon :'(

ok, so anyway, as I said in my previous post that if im free(or have the motivation) i will draw parody characters of us in alice in wonderland but in this case its call Jeannie In Underland ( my friend say its like we are in underwear land world where all the birds and trees, etc are all underwear like panty or thong.. etc.

so the only characters that i draw today was me ( cause it was

easy), Jen, Jeannie, Casty( my best friend), and Jon.

the outfits are designed by my best friend by the way. XD. the background wa

s taken from internet.. lazy to make a background.. ok.. so here. oh, Karen, if your reading this, I'm not done with your character. XD

Jen with another cat.

Jen : "CAN I HAVE SOME MILK-NYAA??"

Cat : *glare =.=*

Me and Casty in her castle. By the way, she's the Queen of Spades.

the reason why i have bunny ears and tail is because i ate the mad hatter's bunny. XD

Jeannie and Jon

Jon is leading Jeannie deeper to the forest instead of helping her...

As you can see, Jon has shrunk into a tiny rabbit!

Maybe Jeannie can get some joy through this.

Cause this is the first time she is taller than Jon. XD

I will probably draw more again... still trying to see which characters fit the people i know XD

Funny, Disgusting and Randomness.

2010-05-24T19:06:00.003+08:00

I ran out of ideas on what i want to say in this blog. A lot of things happened to me but its just can't stay imprinted in my mind. haha, ok, so i'll just say some funny moments that I caught my eyes on today.

Was walking back to our class studio from the Mac Lab. Halfway there, me and Jon were talking about something ( can't remember. we talk alot of crap. LOL) then on the stairways (the one next to the library, heading downstairs) the librarian was heading up to the library. When i turn my head, i saw her putting one arm on the stair.... wall? ah, whatever, dunno what to call it. anyways, she then look down.. and then me and Jon saw something we never ever will see a librarian doing that.. she SPIT at the stairs! me and Jon ended up staring at her.. but i turn my head away cause if i look at her i'll end up laughing so loud that even the dead people from heaven could have heard me. It was disgusting but very funny.. why do i find that funny?? lol, told this to Zaaina and Farnaz and they suggested to us that we should have recorded it then post it up on youtube or facebook.. that was mean.. but funny!

wah... i really dunno what to say... next post i do something more fun lah.. maybe i draw some of us in Alice in Wonderland parody character design.. maybe sneak in some IAD people XD hee hee... since its a parody.. maybe should put it Jeannnie In Underland. cause she's the smallest.. wait... Carmen is small too.. whoah... lead role drama...jeng jeng jeng.. any suggestions of your character u are welcome to let me know.... hee hee... BUT!! if I have the time (and motivation), i will draw it. XD

I Craved for Horror...

2010-05-09T15:12:00.002+08:00

For some odd reasons, my head is telling me to go get some horror show.. whether its a movie or from a game, it doesn't really matter.. its just.. i need some horror juice to fill my mind! maybe it has something to do with my current project im doing now.. i dunno. I want to play horror games but i know if i start playing i won't know when to stop, so no for that... i rather watch it than playing it if that happens.. I just feel like watching a Japanese horror movie... omg, am I turning demented??? maybe my nick name should be Dementia... LOL..

I already played and watch several horror games and movies and im running low on it... i like to play or watch games like haunting ground or clock tower 3. it kinda give me the chills of excitement... SERIOUSLY! AM I TURNING INTO A HORROR FREAK?? since my grandma is coming here.. maybe she can fill me up with the kampung ghost stories.. but its a little hard to understand her T.T...

since i can't play horror games, i hope u peeps who are reading this would recommend me some horror shit.. it doesn't matter if it is games or movies, i'll just watch it at youtube~! MUA HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

sigh........................

I LOVE THE DARK........

Capsquare and Times Square~!

2010-05-05T16:55:00.003+08:00

After my birthday, went to capsquare to see some designers putting up their works. our first intention was to go there to see Jeannie's work posted up but turns out they cancel the idea (O.O)!!

Dunno why but we get to see some foundation work of our year, the fca 27 like tai lou fashion and character design, ken's character design and journal, lam's character design and cut out magazine uh.. front page poster? though he didn't win at least his works get to be shown. now thats a consolation!

oh, forgot to mention that I went with Lam, Jen and Jeannie. Zaaina is suppose to come but she didn't show up... Lam and Jeannie tried to call numerous times but she still didn't pick up. of course we can't wait cause we have a schedule to keep up.

yea, we have fun looking around the designers work. Some were really GREAT and cute. saw a few seniors volunteered to help around the exhibition. Took some funny pictures. actually it was Lam, Jen and Jeannie who took the pictures.. not me..(ToT) *left out* NAH!

Actually, the best time to go to Capsquare to see this stuff is during the weekends. most lively and active.

Then our next stop is at Times Square. I suck at roads and direction. I need them to direct me and accompany me to times square cause my mom wouldn't let me go alone so needed lam and the gang to follow.. ok, the mission for me to go to Times Square was to buy my birthday present from my parents~! and that is * drum rolls* GOTH SHOES@!!! MUA KAKAKAKA!!

the gang accompanied me into the shop.. apparently, the VIP room only members can come in. and of course! im a member, so i bring in the gang, the girl who work there only allow 3 people. i thought at first excluding me cause im a member. but she counted me... and kick Jeannie out... Jen was nice so she kick herself out to accompany Jeannie. I really wanted them to go inside and witness the awesomeness of the Goth items in i-Socks! so only lam and me were inside the VIP room.. yea, lam was awed.. lol

then we hit another goth shop and look around for the shoes i want.. then we met my mom ( suppose to meet up with her anyways) and then the shoe hunt begins.. lam, Jeannie and Jen told me things like don't take long shoes cause its malaysia, can't see it anyways.. and its hot..etc.. so yea... a lot of things needed to cut out that i can't buy..(T.T) so i finally bought one that its NOT high and NOT long.. well, its not bad but i still like it.. but it kind off reminds me of mr adi shoes...lol! its quite big. so i hope u guys don't get ur hopes up cause im afraid i might disappoint u!and this is the shortest i can get.. sigh.. well, at least i got the shoes~! hee hee! i want the buckle one though but.. CANNOT SEE IF IM WEARING LONG TROUSERS!!! thats why no point buying the cool, awesome, decorative shoes... people can't even stare at it (T.T).. btw, the girl who work at the goth shop thought i want to cosplay XD

Goth-tastic Birthday Ever!

2010-05-04T19:25:00.003+08:00

Today is my birthday and im writing this post was to show my appreciation towards my friends in college who celebrated this day with me! I want to thank... ( ok im gonna list them XD)

Jon Lam

Jeannie

Zaaina

Farnaz

Sheryl

Carmen

Peck Yee

Ken

Tai Lou

Charcoal

Hui Yann

Jon Wong

Christy

Adam

Christine

Wai Hong

( i think that's the spelling..)

Last but not least

Jen! the special guest!

ok, i hope i didn't miss out anybody! Anyway,

I really enjoy my birthday today

cause u guys went all out to dress all in black and goth today for me

I thank the boys for wearing the black nail polish

i thank the girls for wearing awesome jewellery and clothing.

Must also thank Lam for wearing the eyeliner even though i told him i will

probably wear it.. LOL

and Lam, thanks for the surprise and the Caleb doll~!

Thank u Peck Yee and the gang for the awesome ring! LUV IT!

Thank you Carmen for the nail polish ! lol, now i have black and white nail polish~!

To the person who gave me the other cool bracelet, thank u too! im sorry i kinda forgot who gave it to me...

Thank You Jeannie for the cool bracelet too!

Thank U Jen For the AWESOME drawings of ME XD!!

U GUYS ARE AWESOME!

Where oh where did my mind go?

2010-04-24T22:19:00.005+08:00

being forgetful lately.. not only that... it seems that my laziness has been upgraded...which is bad... VERY bad... lately, i fatigue easily now... I use to NOT sleep during the afternoons... but now.. i have to sleep during the afternoon otherwise i wouldn't be awake during the day.. which sucks cause im missing out the afternoon time to do my work and then at night i will be damn slow doing my project.. the forgetful part..well.. i forgot somethings that needed to do, not only that... i forgot about my childhood friend birthday.. he came to my place and even ask me the obvious thing that all birthday boys and girls would ask like, "What date is it today or guess whats so special about today?" so.. i was blur that day and a little forgetful and i just told him todays date and did not wish him happy birthday AT ALL and let him just left the house! Then i pondered about what he just ask me and i began to think that sentence was so familiar.. then it hit me.. it was his birthday! I quickly grab my cellphone and called him before he left for UK. I felt so bad that i didn't get him anything considering that he is my childhood friends since..what? like...7 years old?? WOW.. I felt that it isn't fair that i got something for his sis and i got him nothing.. haiz.. And guess what? I EVEN FORGET MY GRANDMA BIRTHDAY IS TODAY!! what a terrible person i am.. on graphic day as well! i was totally excited about graphic day that i forget my grandma birthday.. oh well, we at least celebrated her birthday with the family. oh! and jeannie got selected as the top 20 for the graphic day poster thing! CONGRATZ JEANNIE! now you know you can do it! don't ever give up cause u know you got the potential to do better things! but most importantly... STOP GRUMBLING! hee hee! friendly motivation from your wicked goth admirer friend~!

The Fall

2010-04-07T13:02:00.010+08:00

A good movie to watch.

Languishing in a hospital, a man name Roy Walker (Lee Pace) is a broken man in more ways than one :

Unable to walk after a fall from a horse in a movie stunt, his heart is also broken after his girl friend ran off with the movie's leading man. Ready to end his life, Roy befriends a five-year-old fellow patient Alexandria( Catina Untaru), with a goal of persuading her to steal a fatal dose of morphine pills for him.

Roy launches into a story that fuses a patients, staff and others at the hospital with imagined personas and exotic lands. What he described as " an epic tale of love and revenge " is so riveting to Alexandria that she will do whatever Roy asks in order to hear the next installment. The tale loosely mirrors of the ill-fated love triangle that has left him heartsick and features Alexandria's favourite nurse, Evelyn( Justine Waddell), as the beautiful Princess Evelyn: Sinclair( Daniel Caltagirone), the movie star who stole Roy's girlfriend, as the detested Governor Odius; and Roy himself as the avenging Black Bandit who leads the attack on the the governor with the help of a colourful posse that includes Alexandria as the Black Bandit's daughter.

But as the story takes a darker turn, Alexandria begins to realize there is far more at stake than the fate of a handful of imaginary characters. Its up to Roy whether the Black Bandit-and Roy himself- will survive the climatic scene.

Roy and Alexandria in the story.

Roy- Black Bandit

Alexandria - Black Bandit daughter.

Governor Odius soldiers.

I kinda forget the names of the other rest of the bandits..

well, just go watch it for yourself.

I kinda like the kid(Alexandria). She's so cute in the movie!

I watch it in HBO so if you wanna watch it.. go watch it online or download it.

and the synopsis, I just took it from The Fall website. hee hee.....

Bugs + Friends..

2010-03-31T20:11:00.020+08:00

Ok, nando's competition thing is due tomorrow and im kinda stuck with some areas that are...BLANK! *gasp*

anyways, went online to research on rare bugs in Sabah and i came across some bugs that reminds me of certain people in college..lol. im doing this just for the fun of it.

ok, first bug!

Jeannie, the lantern bug! she's so wild with

her colour and this sort of reminds me of her.

And its kinda cute like her. hee..

2nd bug

OMG! SEXY!! WHERE ARE YOU??!!

alrighty people, lets play Spot Kin Weng!

no prize shall be given.

Oh...Kin Weng got caught and displayed ... mua hahaha..

3rd bug

This somehow reminds me of tai lou ( yong hong) being strong and all

dependable..yea...

4th bug

This cute big lard here reminds me of Ken.

Ken, im not calling you fat.. YOUR NOT FAT!! its just..

somehow remind me of you..

probably its something on its head that reminds me of you.

YOU THINK SHIT!! LOL!!

just kidding.. im sorry!

5th bug

Our very own friend, Zaaina! yea, also wild with her colours

but she's more feminine.

6th Bug

Gan Peck Yee, well, peck yee body figure look very elegant like..

more like a model actually and she's pretty and all..

so yea, this one reminds me of her.

7th bug

im sorry Carmen, but this definitely reminds me of you!

cause its small.. and your small..lol.. that a silly way to put it...

well, its cute! isn't it?

8th bug

YEA! NOW THIS IS SHERYL!! HER AWESOME HAIR!

lots of hair gel and wax used eh?

9th bug

FARNAZ!! cause she likes blue a lot.. and this bug is all blue..

i have no idea what kind of bug is this...

10th bug

this somehow...uh... reminds me of....me........

yea, i leave it to you think.

11th bug

CHARCOAL!! LOOK!! it even have the same skin colour as YOU!

LOL...

yea, hope you enjoy it and if i have insulted you in any way, im sorry peeps!

and for those who i have not mention, im sorry cause im too lazy already............... mua hahahhahahahaha..............

our field trip

2010-03-10T18:06:00.004+08:00

Our field trip this time is at Rimba Dusun ( i think thats the name XD). it was actually a cool and awesome place to go but beware of mosquitoes. yes, there were everywhere and a good chance for me to hit anybody! ( I'M JOKING!) cause i actually hit the lecturer's hand cause there was a mosquito on him.. i was tempted to hit it cause i hate mosquitoes.. not because its a perfect once in a lifetime chance to hit a lecturer XD ( again! I'm kidding about the once in a lifetime chance!) i just hate mosquitoes cause they are disgusting and you can get sick from them.. and im still alive even though my hand was bitten like 5 times... all on my right hand... 2 times were in the same spot..wow...

ok, the trip there was a good experience and we get to know some of the plants and trees there like which plant could make you into a zombie and which tree sap could kill you ( i think it was the ipoh tree).. Jon restricted me from taking any of those plants.."i wonder why..."

we even get to go inside a kampung house and its quite different from any of those typical types especially the carvings and the paintings on the house. they actually jsut reconstructed it and its quite more modern from the kampung from where i was raised..

after that, we finally get to go to the gallery ( yay, air con!) the artwork there was really nice... lots of skulls.. lol.. admire the artworks...yatta yatta..then it was time to go back.. have lunch at centrepoint at the restaurant the grills frills.. i think its called that.. then went back to college.. i brought along my bottle of fake blood and play around. All in all, it was an enjoyable day!

*pictures will be upload in FB.*

Monday + Gothday = Steph's Day

2010-03-08T19:18:00.003+08:00

My day~! Today's goth day was better than the 1st Goth day. why? that's because our little midgit doesn't want to wear her black pants last week. But this week she wears all black~! YES!! yea, went out to buy tickets for Alice in Wonderland movie but can't.. only tomorrow can buy..sucks.. all that way for nothing.. so we decided to buy a gift for a certain person but we ended up going from one shop to another. oh, before that, about Lam's hair today. BOY!!! I WAS SO SURPRISE!! Ken and Jeaanie were in the studio already so they told me about Lam's hair was ugly. i thought they were just being critical or exaggerating that Lam hair sucks so i still keep my faith in him that it doesn't make him look that bad but in the end... they were right.. THE HORROR!!! yea, Lam, you look like you've been electrocuted.. LOL, like Einstein.. dear Lord..

Yea, went to Lam house to fix his hair.. yes.. all the way to fix his hair.. lol. Ken was acting to do so funny live show so he's the host, Jeannie is the camera lady, Lam is the person who needs some help with his hair and im the so called person who's gonna be the one fixing his hair ( stylist). yea, after all the events happen in his house, then we went to 1u for the tickets. as i said just now, couldn't get it.. so we continue on to buy present. Ken was then hungry so Jeaanie decided the place for us to eat ( Pizza Milano). The waitress serve Ken's food to him but the way she gives him is like she's having PMS today so she's like a little grouchy.. poor Ken. LOL.

In the end, we couldn't get the gift.. so we went to pharmacy to buy some eyeliner for me. but i also bought it to do it on Lam and Jeannie's eyes.. hee hee. so the 3 of us wore eyeliner, me and Lam's eyes were drawn by Zaaina, while Jeannie's eyes is drawn by me~! ( who have no experience with it)

So all in all, it was a fun goth day. took some emo pictures. And laugh a lot. especially at Lam's " SEXY" eyes~! haha! you still look good in it lam!

New Skin~!

2010-03-02T16:36:00.002+08:00

yes, as you can see, i changed my blog skin. yea, i got bored with my old one...

finished project 2, now on to project 3 and 4... oh dear... im done dealing with kids anyways...

it was fun interacting with them and im getting tired of talking like a dumbo... im not calling the kids dumb but you have to baby talk with them to get on their good side or else.sometimes kids can be funny and some time.. they are just plain annoying.. i like kids but for now i don't want to see another kid... that exclude Jeannie and Ken (he's still a kid but not the small bratty types..)

you know, now that i think about it... Dress Jeannie up as a kid and she'll be one of them~! lol. but all in all, doing this project. i get to be a little daring to talk with the little kids. ( but some really ticks me off that i want to shoot them!)

Children..little mischievous devils..

2010-02-09T19:25:00.009+08:00

yes, for this post im talking about kids... don't take me wrong like thinking i hate kids or I'm a pedophile or some weird things you people are thinking. i like kids but sometimes you just want to strangle the life out of them.. why you ask? thats because these little devils can use their innocent look to cover up their devilish plans inside them...

why am i talking about kids? well, it so happens yesterday i was walking around ( my area) with my camera to the nursery ( evil kids lair..bad choice to go) the kids there were painting( WHAT A COINCIDENCE) so I talk to them a little and i was shock to know that at their age to know the word DIE! yea...i ask one of the little devils to draw something on the paper i provided. 2 times he wrote the word " die!" front and back. then i ask another boy and girl to draw something as well. then one of their friend ( the devil who started it!) accidently spray me with his paint.( why was he even spraying his brush??) of course my reaction is rather dramatic so unconsciously i made them laugh ( VERY BAD MOVE!) then the mayhem begins... yea..they spray with their brushes with the colour red, yellow, green and a little blue.... one girl and 2 boys participate this nasty event. some were very good course they did not spray me..lol... i dun wanna talk about how on earth i get out of that mess.. went back home ( my hand and feet were covered with tiny specks of paint... i feel colourful.......LOL.

anyway, moral of story,

(some) KIDS ARE GOOD LIARS...DON'T BE DECEIVE!!

and they have good potentials to be double agents..hahaha..

2 more days! just 2 more days!

2010-02-08T15:42:00.004+08:00

YES! im FINALLY going back to my hometown! It's been a while since i've been this excited! (but still got work to do even though im there...) yes, my adventure in the kampung shall begin once im there! and the horrifying nights i must endure especially at 12 midnight.. yes! AHH!! im so happy! hope don't go around houses for chinese new year cause i want to spent my time in the kampung rather than in the cities in Sabah.. AHH!! i miss the little kitties and doggies there! i hope the cripple cat that i love is still there since he can't really move so i can play with it since it can't ran away..HAHAHAH!! dogs are harder to play with cause its been awhile i handle with dogs.. i bet those dogs can't remember me... gonna take some pictures to show to peck yee! woo!! peck yee , expect pictures from me! i probably won't upload it though but i can show it to you through my laptop.. maybe i will upload it..maybe i won't....next time, we should go together to Sabah!! try staying at my grandma house in the kampung! hunt chickens too!!mua hahah. i shall teach you the arts of the hunt ( using a sling shot..) hahah!! actually, no hunting required. hit a chicken once with the sling shot, boy, did i get the scolding of my lifetime from my mom! hahaha!can go kai kai.hmm.. im gonna record too.. must record!! WOOHOO! pray nothing goes wrong with my stay in Sabah too!

To My Best Friend, Your Never Gonna Be Alone.

2010-01-25T17:06:00.010+08:00

Well, best friend of mine, i just want to say these things to you before you go. Thank you for always being there for me when I'm down, depressed or sad. Through the hard times i went through high school, your always there to brighten up my day and you're always there defending me (even teachers who simply accused me...lol) you are one special friend that I will never forget and I still remember your act of kindness towards me when we just met as strangers. Like the drama, King of Scotland and Macbeth.HAHA! Now that your going oversea, we won't get to hang out. I dunno whether are you excited or scared to go oversea but if you ever need someone to talk to. email me and i will reply you ASAP! you know, I never thought you would be the first to leave to go overseas to study XD I'm kinda bad at expressing so i hope you get what I mean when i call you " My Best Friend." and this song is another message to you.

Time, is going by, so much faster than I

And I'm starting to regret not spending all of here with you

Now I'm wondering why I've kept this bottled inside

So I'm starting to regret not telling all of it to you

So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on

If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall

You're never gonna be alone, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands

'Cause forever I believe

That there's nothing I could need but you

So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on

If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall

When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on

We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

Oh, you've gotta live every single day

Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?

Don't let it slip away, could be our only one

You know it's only just begun, every single day

Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?

Tomorrow never comes

Time is going by so much faster than I

And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on

If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall

When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on

We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

I'm gonna be there always

I won't be missing a word all day

I'm gonna be there always

I won't be missing a word all day

Blah

2010-01-20T10:32:00.002+08:00

yay, finish project 1 and I'm already half dead (X.X) today didn't have to go to college but already got the second project so have to go out and take some pictures...do research..grr... i could have slept a bit more to recuperate the lost sleep if it weren't for KIN WENG to CALL me and WAKE me up from my NICE SLEEP!! but lucky he call otherwise i waste my morning by sleeping... no good..no good.. anyway, seeing IAD people finish their class so FAST?? wonder what project you IAD people doing( whoah, discriminating people! lol.)

Today...

2010-01-11T21:30:00.003+08:00

Start college today!! But!! nothing much happen....... Thank God for our new classroom. its not that big but just right for eight people in graphic. yep..eight people..... wow.....so little... sadly, not much people from other college transfer to KBU. ah well.. met new people and met someone that is an eyesore to me... don't wanna talk about that person so proceed to other things.. Can't wait to learn and I'm prepared for more XL eye bags to form under my eyes!

2 more days to go college

2010-01-03T11:00:00.004+08:00

third day of the new year... 2 more days to go back college and start degree....AHH!!! im excited... heard that other people from other colleges are coming also..excited as well! make new friends!muahahah... yea, excited but.... where on earth am i suppose to go??????? and i meant the place not the course! where ~ oh ~ where ~ am~ I ~ suppose ~ to ~ go... OH ~ WHERE ~ OH ~ WHERE ~ CAN ~ IT ~ BE!

Christmas is over.

2009-12-27T22:13:00.005+08:00

wow, time pass by so quickly! Just celebrated Christmas and now its over! the new year is coming! wah...if this keeps up.. sure get old in no time...lol.. Christmas was a blast for me. got nice presents from family and friends~! i was very surprised that my mom gave me jack skellington key chain for my presents! usually, she'll buy me something...hmm.... that involves what i like to do! DRAW!lol! but luv the gift anyway! woohoo! Have 2 days of feast and party! gonna do some hardcore exercising for this.. my mum's cooking was awesome ( as usual..HEHE). after the Christmas party, me and my bud do some art stuff.. like making another character... damn, her fashion sense is good....... she really taught me some fashion stuff for my model.. admire her creativity for fashion! and we managed to make 3 models in one day... not bad..well.. its because two people are doing this... i do the molding ( i know i suck at it but im practicing!) and we do the clothes but she really help me modify a lot of things... damn, i need to improve my fashion sense for models... need to read more magazines! but sometimes magazines bore me.. i need to read it with someone...heehehe... ok, went off topic a little.. I just want to upgrade my blog and kill a little time here! LOL!

Childhood friend

2009-12-22T23:38:00.003+08:00

Today, went out with my childhood friend, KP, with his family to Pavillion. yea, after we arrived there, me and KP get to hang out together to go sungai wang instead. i rarely went to sungai wang and he's from Sibu and he know all the way how to walk to sungai wang...isk isk..

wow, we visit various game shop and yea...some of the employees there SUCK! i really hate it... some attitudes and expression annoy the hell out of me... then we have to wait for a while for him game to be install in his psp... so we went coffee bean yamcha... we saw that there was a power ranger promotion thingy and it was next to the coffee bean.. so we were just "observing" the show that it was put on for kids to watch.. yea, we laugh at the show and commented that the villains of power ranger were improving.... its like they are getting colourful as well.. lol. we even compare the japan and western version of power ranger and talk about our memories when we were kids we watched this kind of show...

anyway, my childhood friend is going to london tomorrow... sigh..won't get to hang out with much often now.. too bad that i don't get to see him off at the airpost since my parents say no need..( i want to say my goodbye to him!) maybe im gonna miss him...MAYBE.. i dunno. wonder if i'll cry... NAH!!!!! hahahah! will see him when go overseas...

Goodbye Pig...

2009-12-21T21:18:00.003+08:00

Sad news today... when i woke up, i was already told the sad news from my mom.... my sister pet guinea pig passed away... i was quite shock by the sudden death of dear pig( yes, its name was pig)... its gonna be quiet in this house... usually, i can hear pig squeal every time if i call my sis or its name.. sigh...so sad... im actually surprised that my pet hamster, pantat, live longer than my sis guinea pig... the hamster live like 2-3 years already? i was sad when i saw pig's body... so lifeless. im amazed with my sis... her expression didn;t change.... she didn't cry or show any signs of sadness... She act like how she usually act normally.. TOO NORMAL!!! if it was me, i would be crying! yes, im very sensitive with pets.. they are like family to me as well. im not quite close with pig cause im afraid to hold pig... his massive size scare the hell out of me... i know its because he's a guinea pig but this is my first time that we actually have a pet guinea pig..poor pantat too...he's gonna be lonely... no one to make noise to disturb him...

Though the time we spent was very short and less , i will miss you dear pig...

Missing Sabah...

2009-12-19T14:05:00.003+08:00

yay...my teddy is cured! i guess.. well, using the old songs.. can't put up the new ones...dunno why.. im already bored at home cause I can't go travelling.... my buds can't go out cause they are busy now... I can't go Sabah cause my mom gave me a late reply whether i can go or not...so too late already.. lazy to go church as well...I WANNA TRAVEL!!! then take many pictures!! I wanna relax at Sabah.......at the kampung... no heavy traffics.. no car congestion... people there all so polite... don't really care about status there... wah, talk late at night with my cousins!! until dogs start howling ... i used to be scared at night cause usually the dogs howl at 12 midnight.. its like a signal telling us that the ghost is either far away from our house or passing by the house.. yea, used to be scared like shit .. now not really.. the sky is clear at Sabah...wah... at night, it is also very beautiful as you can see the stars.. it really have the "kampung" feeling there.. here eh? uh...looking outside my sis window, i can see smoke, construction, heavy traffic jams... outside, people give foul language to other people if they drive like shit or something...too many buildings... can't see the clear sky... at night also can;t see stars here... yea, right now im just complaining in this blog about here just to relieve " the boredom" stress...

TEDDY!!! SPEAK TO ME!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-18T19:55:00.003+08:00

ok.... my mp3 bear is not making noise...why..... anyone who is reading this...please let me know whether you can hear it... if you can't hear it.. then I have no choice but to kill the bear... TEDDY!!! SPEAK!!!!!!! or make some noise coming out of your boom box thingy...

just another day..

2009-12-14T22:35:00.003+08:00

Today was the day where all of us hand in our sketchbooks from sem 1 to sem 3.. wow.. very heavy to carry all my sketchbooks.. thank god my friend was following me to college.. hehehe, and he's only 17~! mua hahah! bringing an outsider to the college! ( what kind of crime is that... pathetic!) anyway, finally get Ken to talk with my childhood friend.. but man! you can do better than that! you barely start a conversation with him. WHAT MANLY TALK?? all i hear is pirated blue ray disk is out!

yea, after handing in our work... me and my fren went to 1u..wow..we walk the whole day ( with this sister as well) like 11 in the morning to 5.30pm... my feet hurts......... bought the games i wanted...he got his psp updated.. we both then bought anime...his sister clings and holds my hand like im the boyfren... ohhh!!oh!! and i finally bought MY LITTLE BLACK DEVIL~!!!! yea!! next time i should put it as my profile picture in msn...lololol... then we saw some weird lady hair puff up so BIG...wow..wish that i could have taken a picture of it but unfortunately i didn;t brought my camera that time...sigh... hmm.. i wonder if her hair can match mr hafez afro...yea, the usual thing me and my fren always do..mess around...

Todays Adventure

2009-12-10T20:14:00.012+08:00

Well, today we got back our feedbacks. quite happy with the grade that ms Yvonne gave me Anyway, today was the day we would go to Ms Yvonne and Mrs Guat Ling gallery.

In the car, guiding Sheryl the way to Desa Sri Hartamas, I was actually a bit worried that tai lou and the rest would get lost halfway... finding parking with sheryl and the gang was very funny as we were shouting to the other big fancy cars ( inside sheryl car) like " NO!!NOO!! TOO FAT LAH YOUR CAR!!" or " GO AWAY LAH!!" or" GIVE UP LAH!!" the best part was we were like yelling " BANG!!BANG!!BANG!! BANG OTHER PEOPLE CAR!!!"

yea, this is where our malaysian spirit awake in us.. the funniest part when finding parking was a black honda( i think) was trying to park the side but we were like saying "cannot lah that car... too small the space" we went several rounds to find parking and each round everytime sherly saw the car she would be like saying " WHAT?? OLD MAN?? STILL PARKING KAH?? HAIYO!! GIVE UP LAR!!!" Sheryl is so damn funny.

By the time we were done with our parking, we were having trouble finding the gallery now... lol, Jeannie was too afraid to ask or talk with Ms Yvonne cause she blames her English language was terrible so time and time she would pass her cell phone to us.. when we found the gallery, we couldn't go in.. Sheryl and Desmond were spamming the doorbell.. omg.. those guys were really crazy sometimes but damn fun to be with them. Yea, so we waited and entertain ourselves.. finally the guy came and we quickly went in the gallery.

the guy then left us...ALONE... in the gallery..now the mayhem begins... everyone was having fun playing around in the gallery ( we're supposed to look at the painting! we did..but after that we start playing) tailou was doing bollywood..sheryl and carmen were taking pictures..charcoal is taking picture of Desmond posing around.. Ken is just being part of the painting...me and Lam were discovering " new" things in the gallery... Hui Yann and Jeannie blends in the background.. they didn;t quite cause a mayhem..sigh..goody people..

then the gang decided to drop by my place (O.O) * GASP* and they ate taufu fa at my place.. Ken was tempted to eat the gingerbread house that my mom made ( Ken! if i kept my mouth shut and let you eat it..you won;t be here..) yea, so there were just touring around my house and tai lou and carmen were taking photos of my place.. well, i hope they have a good time at my place.

PS: Guys.. I thought my mom was in her room sleeping cause she sms me to be quiet if we are there.. i didn't know she was out (O.O) sorry ya! (>.<)/ we were quiet for nothing!

Coming up holidays~!

2009-12-02T18:26:00.004+08:00

AT LONG LAST! NO MORE MALAYSIAN STUDIES! NO MORE MORAL! but it was fun also but just that a lot of work clashes with it.. ahh... I can finally rest..( not really) and the test obstacles is over. thank god as well... gawd.. im so tired and i dunno why i am typing now... trying hard not to fall asleep... i don't really like to sleep in the afternoon cause its like your wasting your day and time napping when the whole world is moving.. yea, thats what i think.. Christmas is coming soon as well so now's the time to shop for presents~! Its fun to shop gifts for the person you intend to give cause its nice to see their face happy or surprise and the long hour search makes it worth while. then there is the feast that the mothers or aunts would prepare. the fathers or men as usual would sit around and talk. then the feast begins...ahh..christmas... my fav part is the presents. yea, im still a kid in heart.. but what can i say? you only get to experience the joy of Christmas once year so make it worth it. afterall, every little sec counts.

yay, yay!

2009-11-23T20:54:00.002+08:00

ALRIGHT!! FINALLY~! the recording for the clip is finally done~! all thats left is just to put them together with the picture~! YES~~!!! oh gawd..i thought it'll take me forever!! and i was rushing it as well... because i need to show this to the pastor for the approval whether can it be watched by kids and she makes my deadline nearer instead of making it further (O.O) GASP!.. i hope it does get the approval cause i work my butt out and cutting back sleeps and rushing with assignments. im just happy that i got one down and a few more to go..well, at least one achieved goal... and my laptop is fixed~! YAY! another happy moment! i miss you my laptop!! DON"T DIE ON ME AGAIN!!! lol..

TO-DO-LIST-POST

2009-11-15T12:14:00.004+08:00

wow, this month im going to be extremely dead. Not only i have assignments that i need to do. but the church thing as well. oh gawd..and i only have 2 weeks to draw and make the clip for the kids at the church! WAH!!!!! and the voice recording and the background music and all that!! want to find the people who can do the voice somemore! and arrange the time and place for the recording!WAH!!!!!!!!!!!! want to cry already ( T.T) but i wish i have a place that got all the recording equipment! it looks so shiny and new and WOW! yea, taking my frustration out on this poor blog of mine. need to shout it out! well, basically..typing it out more exact. hehehe... yea, im writing this very short cause im just too pissed to draw or think for a while.

What happened so far~

2009-11-12T16:39:00.003+08:00

Laptop~ oh laptop... why must your LCD screen betray me now~?? now im using my sis desktop which is slow! I hate using this cause it always HANGS! well, no point complaining. at least I can use it for now... Can't save a lot of things in this desktop too cause it will also hang... Waiting for the technician dude to come to fix it... Waiting..And waiting...For that day to come... And then there is the church story script which I haven't finish... thank god Casty is going to help me with it.. I wonder if I can exploit Alyna and her writing skills.... I'm also wondering if she is reading this now... LOL!!! But what the heck. still having fun no matter what. After all, I'm doing something that I like to do.(^.^)/ this is also a good experience for me and my friends. this time is for kids..a whole bunch of kids.. gawd, im sleepy now.. wonder why everyday at home i always feel sleepy.. usually i can stay awake and not go to sleep during evening or afternoon. now i can sleep like a log..

HALLOWEEN IS HERE~!

2009-10-31T22:35:00.002+08:00

alright~! Halloween is here~! Dress up~! yea, a perfect excuse to dress up so no one can complain about it~!heheheh! This year, although not many people turn up, they really dress up. except for my grandma. haha. yea, before we went to the party, Casty, Alyna and me were helping each other out with the costume and stuff. ( we didn't wear make up cause its a drag and we aren't really good with it...) okay, lets begin with who's WHO.. my best bud, Casty.. she's going as Medusa. her costume was really SEXY!! Alyna, my best bud as well, going as some gypsy gal.. yea.. but she's a murdered gypsy.. as she was spraying red hair spray at her hair, she accidently sprayed near her armpit as well... so her arm is bloody..lol.. my dad going as Fred flinstones and my mom going as Wilma Flinstones. my elder sis going as the female pirate captain while i am going as the phantom of the opera.. i like my outfit.. i look AWESOME!!! hahah!!! lots of bragging here.... my uncle and aunt going as characters from toy story such as woody and jessie. finally my little diabolical cousin, Christoph, a knight. yea..i call him diabolical but he's a knight... oh! he's diabolical all right...he trick me and he handcuff me!yea, it took me and my buds to figure it out how to unlock the cuffs WITHOUT THE KEY?!! my friend tried to use he fingernails..cool but not a good idea.. apparently, my friend alyna decided to use brute force and it works.. LOL!! then he tried it on my dad... then he was in my situation before..hehe.. all the way, he likes to slash my ass with his sword... if the sword is real, i think he will do me the favour of getting rid of the flabs..LOL!!the fun thing about dressing up is that i like to see the look on people face when they see something unusual.. its really..i dunno.. FUN! when me, my buds and my sis walking back to damai, some cars would slow down and try to take a good look at our costume and yea, we see the faces of the people who slow down the cars.. some people would just smile and be amazed with the costume.. not to brag but i think this year costume rocks.. i especially loved my pants..i just add some chains around it and it look AWESOME!! WOOHOO!! yea, so took lots of pictures and will upload em.. hehe.. anyways..

HAPPY HALLOWEEN Y'ALL!

Another day

2009-10-26T20:47:00.006+08:00

Woohoo~! Halloween is coming! YESS!! I CAN'T WAIT TO GO TO MY AUNT'S HALLOWEEN PARTY~! And i get to see my best friend~! yay~! but!! even though halloween is coming but theres more work to do as well.. not really complaining about the work cause i quite enjoy doing it a lot but im quite slow when i make stuff.. wats suck as well, is my knee ligament..AGAIN! my knee ligament slip again so i can feel my bones actually slip to the other way..( its a creepy feeling) its so damn hard to walk cause sometimes it hurts but sometimes it doesn't hurt . its also very hard for me to go to toilet in KBU cause for girls toilet you need to "BEND"!! uggh! there is a few toilet that have seats but DAMN IT!! What are the girls in KBU are thinking?? LEAVING YA SHIT IN THERE?? WHAT?? IS THAT FOR SOMEONE SPECIAL OR A PRESENT FOR THEM?? . This really get on my nerves... sometimes i don't want to go to toilet because its always so damn dirty! EVEN THE BOYS TOILET LOOKS CLEANER! I DID NOT, I REPEAT, DID NOT, go to the boys bathroom to see whether its clean or something like that.. today there is uh.. drama.. i think its drama.. Peck yee accidently cut her own finger and i think that her skin has come off as well and there is a lot of blood.. i was disgusted, i want to help but i don't know how so i don't want to be in the way so i just continue to do my work and i dont want to see blood and busy doing my cover for my journal. Funny thing about people habits are like they will sometimes squeal or perhape just say it out loud like," OMG! I HATE BLOOD!" or " IM SO SCARED TO SEE BLOOD!" and they will still go near to the injured person and see the blood..How ironic .... it also makes me laugh and its a common thing that malaysian always does... I probably also did something like that but not to some things that i really don't like.. i mean, if you don't like to see it, then don;t look! simple. compare my knee ligament to Peck yee's cut on her finger.. her pain is much more excruciating as she have to undergo like stitches like 5 TIMES!! omg.. i admire peck yee how she can endure that pain and see her own finger being poked in and out with a needle..

i - SOCKS

2009-10-16T19:59:00.006+08:00

today, went to times square to take some photos and go do my research. yea, went to the i-socks shop. at first i was like thinking how come there are 4 shops that are i-socks and they are like 2 stores apart. yea, went inside to understand more about goth. ( i forgot to mention that my project topic is goth culture) as i went inside.. i got carried away... i ended up shopping for my outfit, bangle and browsing more of their stuff... BUT!

Rest assured that i got what i needed from the shops such as information~! and i made a friend!YAY! She's goth (D-UH!) and she's quite cool and nice. and i have her msn~! yay, now i can communicate with her whenever im online~! the men's outfit in that shops was WHOAH! the special i-socks shop is for members only ( IM A MEMBER!) the quality of the fabric was really good! and detailed! jeannie, tai lou, sexy and charcoal came to times square as well to do their research. jeannie wanted to follow me cause we were doing the same topic but yea im mostly entertaining myself there but if she hang around with me a little longer she could have had some information she needed and a better understanding of goth... cause the friend that i met explain some things like lolita and goth lolita, etc..... but they want to go to pavilion to take more photos i guess... i kinda feel bad making them wait only cause i look like i wasn't doing my research and i already took some pictures before we;re supposed to meet up... oh, i went into those shops with my MOM!! yea! normal 'moms' usually never wan

t to enter those kind of shops ( depend on your mother so i can't exactly make assumptions) anyways, me and mom went from one 1-socks shop to the 2nd i - socks etc.. to get our costume for halloween as well.. so practically im doing my research and having fun as well!HEHEH!!! and i finally have the sharp pointy bangle! MUA HAHAHA!! now.. whoever pisses

me off will get it~! HAHAHAHAH!!!!!

i - SOCKS shops for members only.

The other 3 i-socks shop are for non-members.

HALLOWEEN~!

2009-10-15T20:09:00.006+08:00

HALLOWEEN IS COMING!! HAHAHAHA!!!! I'M SO HAPPY ^.^!! yes, im a Halloween fan girl.. most people think celebrating Halloween is childish but thats because they haven't tried celebrating it and experiencing wearing a costume for a day! i want to make my costume but because of the projects.. i think i have to wear my old costume last year... or maybe i'll just find something and make a quick one... but im not sure what im going to be this year.. oh! my family celebrate Halloween in my aunts house! I can't wait to see what they are going as this year! omg.. all this halloween thing is making me excited and making me lazy to do my work! GASP!!! NO!!! I plan to invite maybe like 3 to 4 frens? i hope my aunt allows that many...LOL! and of course i'll invite my best fren to come! but first have to finish the workload that has already compiled...OMG!!!!!! going to a goth shop for my project and get some for myself! HEHEH!!!! i love goth stuff but im not that masochist or emo. not a goth either! but my elder sister thinks i am....(-_-")

headcahe and pigs..

2009-10-05T20:53:00.002+08:00

ugh..friday..saturday..and sunday.. omg..the worst weekend i ever had.. i was having a freaking headache and painful shoulders. tried to do the project but no avail.. having difficulty to sleep as well so sometimes in the morning im like a monster with a bad hair day... but today( even though stiill having a headache..) my mom bought a guinea pig for my sis!! IT WAS SO CUTE!!! but the name was called Treebark... i ask why and it was because of its tail that looks like a tree bark... wanted to hold it but my sis told me to wait the next day and let it get use to its environment.. i will turn it into a maniacal GUINEA PIG!!! MUA HAHAHA!!!! its a little unfair for me cause my sis wants a pet and they got it through my parents.. i got it through experiments.... LOL!!!!

SINGAPORE! HERE I COME!!!

2009-09-06T22:32:00.003+08:00

Alrighty, tomorrow I'm off to Singapore~!!! a little excited and worry at the same time cause i'll be skipping 2 days of college (GASP!! THE WORK LOAD!!!!).. (T.T) thats why i never want to skip college! going to Singapore by Odyssey bus and im going there with my childhood fren family and his little sis.. too bad my childhood fren is not going cause he have to go back to school tomorrow.. haha, he was a little mad when he knew i was going to Singapore cause he just went there few weeks ago and he was bored...LOL! but will be seeing him again during the holidays again.. If i am free that is...

2nd sis is going to Nottingham soon in 2 weeks time. HAHAHA( taking OVER HER ROOM)!!! HAH! that won't happen... but my close cousin is going to stay over our house (YES!) when my parents are following her to nottingham. she's older than me by 10 years but she's like an older sis to me. I'm supposed to pack my clothes but i hate packing... cause in the middle of the journey, it will be like OMG! IFORGOT TO BRING etc..etc.. haiz.. wondering whether should i bring my laptop to do my work when i am there cause im afraid i will lost my laptop.. i know my laptop is HUGE! but STILL!! for sure im going to do my work otherwise i'll be left behind. okay! BACK TO PACKING! (T.T)

MY NEW BLOG LAYOUT~! (^.^)/

2009-08-26T20:38:00.005+08:00

MUA HAHAHA!!! NEW BLOG LAYOUT!!! YES!! i finally found out how! God,that sounded lame.. yea, im an amateur in computer stuff. but it took me hours how! but.. lost all my old post (T.T) so i have to fix there and that in here... IM NOT LOSING THE TEDDY! HAHA!! the home and archive stuff i still haven't figure it out how... and im dead tired from staring at the screen so don't bother clicking that...and im lazy. my Cbox is not suppose to be blue but oh well..i don't care anymore... okay,anyways....few days ago, i follow my sis to go buy some materials and her fren want to follow us and he was half and hour late.he finally came and we stop by college cause she wants to return some books. after she returns it and got in the car, i notice my sis was waving at someone... i saw a bush... my eyes were still sleepy and my brain is still not fuctioning and i was blur.. then the bush got closer and closer.. and i still didn't recognize it...

until my sis say," hey stef, isn't that your lecturer?"

me: O.O "where??!!"

now the bush was super close to the car and then i finally notice it was Mr. Hafez.... he was right in front of me and i didn't notice.. i didn't even say hi or even recognize..HOW COULD I?? WITH THAT BUSH!!!

Mr Hafez, if your reading this.. IM SORRY!!!! DON"T CUT MY GRADES!!

then we went to midvalley for some materials shopping which reminds me ( i forgot to buy coloured pens (O.O) *GASP*) BAH! i'll just hunt for it in my room..i should have some... first we went to my sis fren choice of shop he want to go which is the COMIX shop. i remember last time, me and my best fren, Casty, wanted to go in. before we even step in, we saw they were having some game with each other and they were staring at us.... nerds.. we coudn't go in cause it was like girls are unwelcome.. my sis fren explain to me they are like that and they never talk to girls before or are very shy when they see girls (-_-")wtf? and they thought when that girls who come into those shops will whop the asses in the game! btw, the its a card game called MAGIC. i collect those cards too but im not that hardcore as them.. anyway, back to the present,went into that shop. me and Gray bought a pack. Gray then talk with some of his frens in that shop ( he knows them from playing those cards game with them) one of the guy was a guai lou and he dresses and looks like a nerd like in those tv..not to sound mean or rude but its true. but at least he's nice to gray cause the other fren was being an ass to him. anyway, the guai lou bought A LOT OF CARDS and he put them on one side which he wants and the other side he doens't want. most of them ended up rejected... gray ask whether he wants it and the guy says no. then he ask whether can he give it away. the guy says ok but gray already have these so why he wants it. he told the guai lou that there is a beginner who is just starting ( he is referring to me) and pointed at me.. ( i don't dare to look at them cause i dunno wat to say) so i pretend and just look around the store.. the guai lou say yes and said enjoy collecting and gives it to me for FREE!! WAHAHAHAHAHA!! YES!!!! but i dun think im going to go in there again unless gray is with me cause they will give me that awkward look..grr..i hate that.. if gray is there, they won't bother if there is a girl.. maybe i should disguise myself next time if i want to go in...

my journey to find metal...yes, its a crappy titel...

2009-08-02T16:27:00.010+08:00

holidays are coming and my high school frens ( we're quite close) invites me to spent some time with them. i felt bad that i always declined their invitation. the projects really occupied my time and our holiday schedule timing is off. hahaha( wait, why am i laughing?) anyways, doing the fashion design project and i find it really fun to use mix media. yesterday, went hunting for materials so that no need to see my money fly away from my wallet. ( takes great pain in seeing my wallet empty). the hardest material to find was the copper metal. i dunno how many hardware shops i went walking under the sun, hoping that they won't need it and just give it to me instead. ( yes, im a cheapskate) but if they do sell it then i'll buy it cause its hard to find. but alas, some hardware shops dunno whats copper and some don't sell or have it. ( some told me where to find it but they dun have it (T-T)) I could actually go on the whole day to find it but i have church at and a pastor birthday dinner to attend. my mom was about to send me to church. on the way, she was hungry so we take a pit stop. but i wasn't in a mood to eat... park the car and was passing by some grocery shop. my eyes was still wandering around to find it and my thoughts were occupied thinking " WHERE THE HELL AM I GOING TO FIND IT?" in the grocery shop, i saw they have some empty biscuit tins and the colour was just right (even though its not copper). i was like yelling "YES!!" and this old lady behind me got a heart attack ( no, she didn't really get a heart attack... just got shock) me and my mom went to shop and ask whether they could give or sell it and they said yes. i added telling them that i just need the tin not the biscuits. the lady was shock too thinking why the hell do i need it... it was all written all over her wrinkling forehead. she agrees and told her worker to find it. at first, the worker just take a look behind and say none. at first, his attitude was all like crap. then, my mom talk to him nicely telling him to try find it again cause i need it for the project ( yea, she told him that). his attitude changes when he heard that i need it for project and when we talk to him nicely. he even got me a nicer tin which is not dirty or covered with rust and cobwebs. paid for it and went to church and was so happy that i finally found it. so all this hard work must not go to waste!!! i shed sweat to find this metal! so i have to make sure that this project will come out well!

(after everything that i have gone through yesterday, i was exhausted like this vampire cat)lol.

Hurry up and get it over with!!

2009-07-27T19:16:00.004+08:00

yay~ sketch model is done~! im SOOOOOOO relieved... now we have to do the real model but before that, me and my frens have to do add some new additions to improve it and the colour exploration. i saw some other teams were doing the work really fast so that kind of got me motivated to do my work fast and better too..hehe.. Quite happy with the comments from the interior design lecturer( i dunno how to spell her name) cause she gave comments on how we can improve it at the same time saying that the model was good, detailed and clear. now is the colour exploration... ugh.. i want to hurry up and finish this project( but must do good as well!!!) and go to the design conference!!!!!!! i want to go in for free........... hahaha........yea...... the only way for me to infiltrate is to volunteer for the design conference!!!! MUA HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! but first have to finish up the project!!! (T.T)/ OKAY!! NOW IM MOTIVATED TO DO MY WORK!!! I FEEL THE FIRE!! ok...keeping all this yelling of motivation to myself now..... getting huge panda eyes and exhausted like the cat in the picture.. hehe. i like cats.

Clock Tower 3

2009-06-28T13:54:00.020+08:00

For the past few weeks, i've been doing my project....slowly..... and playing my PS2....yes, i know im not suppose to play but i was like THE HECK with it.... borrowed a game from my fren ( only for a few days) which is Clock Tower 3. okay..that game freaks the hell out of me... I'll "try" my best not to say any "vulgar" language here but seriously that game cheats..( i bet your thinking "no, the game doesn't cheat.. you just suck at it...") he even lend me his memory card to play certain parts... i hated it... the rest i just watch it in youtube cause im scared...

(after playing clock tower 3)

okay.... In case you all don't know what is Clock tower 3.. here is a short summary...
Alysaa Hamilton, a 14 year old girl who lives in a boarding school. Apparently, her mom send her there ( probably she hates Alysaa...lol). One day, her mom sent her a weird letter and told her to stay far away from home as possible as her 15th birthday is approaching... ( in the letter " Stay away you bitch!" lol...im just messing around...) So Alysaa was all "WTF?" and went home... ( dumb girl) When she arrived, her mom is missing and some peadophile <-( known as the Dark Gentlemen) was all " ALYSAA!! YOUR MINE?!! some crap like that... offers her cryptic and clues to her mother's fate... yea, so she has to battle every subordinate known as the Entities ( they are the fucking rapist bad guys..) to get to her mother.

In this bloody game, you'll have to confront the subordinate who will be stalking you ( STALKER!!) Each battle is confined in a single area and yes, you have to defeat them in order to progress... The weapons are a bottle of holy water ( they are kinda like pepper spray..lol), a bow and arrow. As for the arrows, there is 3 different type. one is the unlimited one which you'll use it most of the time, the Repelling arrow and the Binding arrow.

Items will be Lavender water ( to me....its kinda like a drug that keeps Alysaa calm..) sigil stone that protects her from damaged ( one sigil stone is protection for one hit..i know..it sucks..) Invisibility band ( it makes her Invisible...D-UH!) and sentimental items that helps the ghost to rest in peace ( you'll have to find their bloody items for them if you want to move on or stop bugging you.. and if its that precious to them... why do they LOSE iT?? )

Charecters...

Alysaa

Dennis ( Alysaa childhood friend, i know i didn't mention him cause to me he's not important but im just uploading pictures i have of clock tower 3..)

1st subordinate, Sledgehammer ( i have no idea where he get that hammer...)

Subordinate No.2, Corroder ( he sprays acid with a shower thing )

Subordinate no.3, Chopper ( he loves to chop...)

Subordinate no 4.1 Scissorsman ( lala boy)

Subordinate no 4.2 Scissorwoman ( lala girl... they're twins (-_-"))

About-to-be-Subordinate...lol.. Lord Burroughs ( more like Lord Buttocks to me..)

LAST ( actually not the last..there's more but im lazy to find the rest of the character images ) but not least..... THE EVIL MASTERMIND OF THE GAME..........

DICK HAMILTON!!!!!! (A.K.A the peadophile and grandfather of Alysaa)

Corroder: "HEELLOOO BABY!!!! COME TO DADDY!!"

Alysaa: "FUCK OFF YOU RAPIST!!!"

Sledgehammer: " OH YEA!!! NEW TOY!!!!"

Alysaa: " Oh great.. YOU TOO??? FUCK OFF YOU DICKHEADS!!!!" ( me : O.O whoah..Alysaa... what language...)

Alysaa: lol~! your dead! im not~!ne~!ne~!ne~!

ghost girl:" DIE BITCH!!!!!!!!"

yea, thats about it... theres more but i think the images kinda took most of the space so there... and i add some new music to give you readers the "atmosphere"..hehe... ( well i hope it does except fot the parody part...)

I also added some videos in here of some scenes in clocktower 3. Just click on Mics and your there.

Taekwondo

2009-05-11T19:24:00.009+08:00

im just going to talk random things..maybe not so random.. but as long as i update this thing here... yea... last Saturday, i went for Taekwondo ( OH, i miss it so much!) cause i can't do any kicks or punches at home otherwise i'll break stuff and get my head chewed off.. glad to know my Ex-juniors remembers me and greet me. some tried to hug me but i just say no... and i saw 3 new instructors teaching as well. one was a sadist no 2, one baldy, and one annoying little brat ( actually he's older than me but i just freakin hate his attitude sometimes..) the master wasn't there when i came cause he have some business to attend to overseas. my instructor since i was primary 5, i use to be so afraid of him cause he taught me really harsh, a sadist, most of the time he taught me, and the others were trained by the master. when i was a kid, i remember that i don't want to learn taekwondo cause my friends are not here( i train at my sister high school last time when i was still primary..now still train there too.)afraid of him and i cry when i got home cause i felt like an idiot that time.. but i endure it until i reach from 1, i was already a red belt but due to my age, im not "old" enough to have a black belt so i have to wait 2 years, so pratically i remember all the pattern from yellow belt to red belt. yea, it was hell.. but start to have fun. before i knew it, i like taekwondo a lot! i remember sparring my elder sis friend and she was short so iwas able to kick her ass.. she got piss, drop her hair band and gets serious.. and whoah! killer babe arrived! she was dang fast! when i receive my black belt ( form 3) he start to treat me better maybe its his way to disciplin the students when they are still kids. he's a really good instructor. even though he can be a torturer at times....lol...

left to right
-sadist no 2 next to my instructor( he taught me last time too, quite strict too, now better.)
-instructor
-perasaan dude ( really gets on my nerves..)
-uh..i have no idea who he is cause i never see him before.. dun want to call him...uh..you know what im gonna say...
my ex-juniors. there's more but they already gone home...

ahh!!another new junior in my former high school. i use to teach her in their primary school now they are form1! very cute..

My works and works with teamates. Fun~!

2009-04-09T20:20:00.012+08:00

its been a while since i last update this, so i have an opportunity to write now. i didn't get to post my paintings that i did so now i finally get to show to the people whom i already promise to let them see this. sorry it took quite a while. was busy with the projects and stuff. 1 of Vincent Van Gogh paintings. my 1st try in the A3 sketch book paper.
the real painting in the canvas,looks blur..im such a bad photographer..-_-" can only be seen clearly like this.. my fren,Ken, also a classmate. holding it for me.
SLAVE!! no lah... hehehe
our 3rd project that we do with the juniors. it was fun and a bit stressing.
only have 2 days to do this.
our theme was western so we decided to use gothic architecture. my friends theme were oriental. it looks cool too. my lecturer, the one with big mass and volume of hair.. apparently he doens't want to take
pictures by himself so he drag my friend to take picture with him..lol
my friends, Ken, Jeannie and Yong Hong a.k.a tai lou.Lol
The full picture of the 2 structure. my teamates ( actually there is 2 more, dunno what happen to them..LOL) the guy
standing is the team leader, Johnathan, beside me is my friend Hui Yann.
The tiny pictograms were done by other teams.

it is also thanks to do the juniors who has help us to finish this project and the teamates who have work hard together and i have an enjoyable time with the juniors even though we don't really talk much. i remember some juniors name like Sardish( i think this is the spelling), Neg, Mei Guat, Lenard and Zi. another junior named Stephanie ( what coincidence!) came for the 1st day but dissappeard the next. Heard that my leader scare her off..i think... another junior couldn't come cause of an accident so hope his problems will be solve. Im having a lot of fun with my friends as we were doing this, doing crazy stuff and funny things together. After finishing this, we plan to go MacD to celebrate but i couldn't go cause my sis arrived already to pick me so i can't go with them(cry)..i want that ice-cream...........

SiCk, TirEd, HaPpY and still ALIVE~!

2009-03-21T16:33:00.003+08:00

( this fat cat state my status, look at all the vitamins and health drink)
* actually, they are all Sake........(-_-") *

Alright~! I MIRACULOUSLY finish my project 1 on time this week~! bloody hell, after many sleepless nights, it finally paid off. i realized all my drawings are all detailed and nice except drawing no. 5. i think its too simple.. (TO ME) damn it! ah well, as long i get to pass it up. i saw everyone in the studio and class are so hardworking, tired. some look half dead.. actually, i think most of them already died... lol. most of them didn't sleep for 3 days. i was like omg.. how can you sleep without 3 nites of no sleep. sometimes its scary to talk to them cause im afraid that they will be in a bad mood. usually people who don't get enough sleep will bite your heard off, but they somehow are okay. eventhough they are EXTREMELY tired, they are still able to joke around which is good otherwise the studio will be so quiet.. haha, having much fun with them. miss my old friends too cause now i don't get to see them much and now im having free time to blog this.. which im not suppose to cause I'm suppose to do my other assignments.. well, WHO BLOODY CARES! *sigh* after passing my project, my body was relief so i think all the function off my body all switched off. even my immune system.. now im sick with flu, sore throat, and for some reason my whole body aches... can't even eat sometimes cause no mood and too painful too swallow my food.. at this rate i might slim down even more...HAHAHAHAHA!! and i forgot to take pictures of my drawings of my projects...

Lots to say..

2009-02-18T19:40:00.005+08:00

wow......... how many centuries that i haven't update my blog....lol....nah, its just days...then weeks...then months...then suddenly after 1 year???!! whoa! Actually, i was busy these days that i don't even have time to watch anime online...talk online..etc... and no, I'm not busy because tying up bunnies and then kill them slowly by a death electric ray while forcing them to wear maid outfits....lol..no.. I'm busy because I'm doing my assignments in college. apparently, i got some time to write this, so I'm writing this quick. College is fun and tiring, for those who haven't gone in college yet or sign up for it yet, i say GO NOW!!!!!! before you miss a lot of fun and besides, you'll be left behind. Today, i have fun doing perspek art and talking with my friends... we're supposed to finish 12.00 today(yay) but then our lecturer said we have a talk at 3.00pm today so we have to stay back(boo), apparently, we arrive the hall too early so me and my friends joke around and have fun. at the hall, me and my friends were about to fall asleep. there will be an event going on in titiwangsa and at Le Meridian. there's many more places actually but I forgot. there will be professional painters, animators, etc coming over to kl and there are from Tokyo, Germany, etc.. one of the Germany artwork is worth RM 80,000 just to bring it over to kl so of course the ticket fee is expensive. the rest doesn't concern me, only the animation, which will be held at the 28th march. the early bird ticket fee is RM280 while the door ticket is 380.yep...bloody expensive but good for those who wants some info about how get a good career and so on.......ok, too much talking now...

Quick talk

2008-10-24T15:17:00.004+08:00

ok, Im gonna update and talk fast cause SOMEONE has been asking me when am I gonna update! well, it so happens today. SO HERE!!!LOL!!!!!!!!!!!

hmm... i actually don't have anything to say. except that today me and my friend brains have stop functioning for half-a-day.. If your thinking that my brain is dead now, i won't be writing this... I've been listening to various music and soundtracks for the vid for the My God Talent contest and i think my eardrums has exploded... i have a splitting headache and the first person to bother will die but alas no one bother me so there's no death report in the newspaper today... lol... nah!!! OH MAN I WANNA PLAY MY PS2 !!!! AARRGGHH!!!!! oh, i update some songs.. here's the first song lyrics just in case anyone want to sing along. the next song you just have to find your own lyrics. only 2 songs... im lazy... nowadays, im starting to like listening to alvin and the chipmunks songs... it wasn't me wasn't the chipmunks song. it was just modified by someone in youtube.

IT WASN'T ME
(Yo', man) Yo'(Open up, man) What do you want, man?
(My girl just caught me) You let her catch you?
(I don't know how I let this happen) With who?
(The girl next door, you know) Man
(I don't know what to do) Say it wasn't you
(Alright)
Honey came in and she caught me red-handed
Creeping with the girl next door
Picture this, we were both butt naked, banging on the bathroom floor
How could I forget that I had
Given her an extra keyAll this time she was standing there
She never took her eyes off me
How you can grant the woman access to your villa
Trespasser and a witness while you cling to your pillow
You better watch your back before she turn into a killer
Best for you and the situation not to call the beaner
To be a true player you have to know how to play
If she say a night, convince her say a day
Never admit to a word when she say makes a claim
And you tell her baby no way
But she caught me on the counter (It wasn't me)
Saw me bangin' on the sofa (It wasn't me)
I even had her in the shower (It wasn't me)
She even caught me on camera (It wasn't me)
She saw the marks on my shoulder (It wasn't me)
Heard the words that I told her (It wasn't me)
Heard the scream get louder (It wasn't me)
She stayed until it was over
Honey came in and she caught me red-handed
Creeping with the girl next door
Picture this, we were both butt naked, banging on the bathroom floor
I had tried to keep her
From what she was about to see
Why should she believe me
When I told her it wasn't me
Make sure she knows it's not you and lead her on the right prefix
Whenever you should see her make the giggolo flex
As funny as it be by you, it not that complex
Seeing is believing so you better change your specs
You know she not gonna be worrying bout things from the past
Hardly recollecting and then she'll go to noontime mass
Wait for your answer: go over there
But if she pack a gun you know you better run fast
But she caught me on the counter (It wasn't me)
Saw me bangin' on the sofa (It wasn't me)
I even had her in the shower (It wasn't me)
She even caught me on camera (It wasn't me)
She saw the marks on my shoulder (It wasn't me)
Heard the words that I told her (It wasn't me)
Heard the scream get louder (It wasn't me)
She stayed until it was over
Honey came in and she caught me red-handed
Creeping with the girl next door
Picture this, we were both butt naked, banging on the bathroom floor
How could I forget that I had
Given her an extra key
All this time she was standing there
She never took her eyes off me
Gonna tell her that I'm sorry
For the pain that I've causedI've been listening to your reasoning
It makes no sense at all
We should tell her that I'm sorry
For the pain that I've caused
You may think that you're a player
But you're completely lost
That's why I sing
Honey came in and she caught me red-handed
Creeping with the girl next door
Picture this, we were both butt naked, banging on the bathroom floor
How could I forget that I had
Given her an extra key
All this time she was standing there
She never took her eyes off me

Momentis Vitae Meae

Pets i want :D

The Dreadful cold has return!!

London Bridge Experience

I'M ALIVE!

My Bosom friend

Screw it.

Nonsensical blabbing

Wicked Hairstyles

Here I go

The Sketchbook Project 2011

FUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GO ME!

RELIEVE!!

There goes my weekend (T_T)

Bad day cause of someone? What do I feel? hmmm....

*SCREAMS!!!*

HISSS

Awesome Church Youth Camp

I got it :D

RAWR!!!LEAVE ME BE!!!!!!

To do list

Goth :P

Whats wrong with me?

Listening friends

Hidden Object Games

Hello? Anybody there?

The great awareness comes slowly, piece by piece

Girls Outing

Gimme Horror!

Really wanna know what i feel now?

Concrete Angel

Fuckin Perfect :)

Pump!

Christmas Charity

Movie marathon

Its 2 in the morning, Good morning~!

Face Paint

Fullhouse Cafe

Black Eyed Peas...Nostalgic

Tired Mind

Die Tomorrow

My Midnight Blabber

Halloween ? I dun think so...

Screaming Month of Horror

Not just for vampires

I STEAL FROM THE RICH AND I KEEP IT TO MYSELF!! WHAT AM I ?? :D

THE DARK MONTH OF THE YEAR HAS COME

Sticky tape.

writer's block in picture version~!

I wanna play Obscure I and II !!! ( T o T )

Hibernating Bear

Do animals hate me?

MY NIKON CAMERA HAS RETURN TO ME!! WOOHOO!!!! WELCOME BACK BABY!! XD

Bon Odori

Going to Bon Odori~!

To all my friends.. And I mean EVERYONE of you.

More characters..

Jeannie In Underland characters.

Funny, Disgusting and Randomness.

I Craved for Horror...

Capsquare and Times Square~!

Goth-tastic Birthday Ever!

Where oh where did my mind go?

The Fall

Bugs + Friends..

our field trip

Monday + Gothday = Steph's Day

New Skin~!

Children..little mischievous devils..

2 more days! just 2 more days!

To My Best Friend, Your Never Gonna Be Alone.

Blah

Today...

2 more days to go college

Christmas is over.

Childhood friend

Goodbye Pig...

Missing Sabah...

TEDDY!!! SPEAK TO ME!!!!!!!!!

SCREAMS!!!