1. Get piercings - (im scared but I want those accessories!)
2. Paint 2 Canvas ( hey, i like painting but the cost of canvas now is bloody hell expensive)
[1 more to go]
3. Make 4 dolls - THE REBORN OF MR PENGUIN! why four? i have no idea myself. but c'mon, long holiday, make more dolls!
4. attend church camp - yea yea~~ fun time with mah friends! but of course i'll listen to the talk *cough*
5. Hang out with high school friends - missing em already, me old buddies~~
6. Torture midget - i dunno, i just felt like putting that in and hey, its a tough job *wink*
7. make an animation movie - wanted to make a stop motion movie >< but i need to practice on my crafting skill
8. make a clay character
9. watch alot of anime
10. have a badminton game with friends
11. kidnap friend's dog
12. Go back Sabah
13. complete a journal (hey, can't be lazy now! )
14. write a story (get my creative juice flowing)
15. draw a storybook (always wanted to draw out the stories that me and my sisters thought of)
16. draw a parody of silent hill characters :P
17. use illustrator to do an illustration (at the same time i'm practicing using illustrator)
18. have lunch with the lecturers ( with them not eating them and hey, they are fun people :D )
19. Take lots of pictures
20. Take lots of videos
21. Update my deviantart account with my drawings
22. get an intern job щ(ﾟДﾟщ) WHYYY!!! :P
hmm... so far thats all i can think of... if i have anymore things i want to do, i shall add em to the list! XD
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I'm not really a pure genuine Goth cause I still dress in different colour and not all the time i wear black( ok, SOMETIMES i don't wear black). I don't put white foundation on my skin to make myself look pale (but will try one day), I don't put on heavy eyeshadow make up (but im learning~ but i won't wear em all the time as it could damage my skin), wearing black nail polish is no big deal cause anyone can wear em.. as for my bling blings~ well, you could say... not enough bling :P LOL. And I don't have heavy dressing (although it looks like fun dressing like em) I listen to rock and metal but not as hardcore as em.. i still like listening to instrumental music... I won't abandon my religion just to be a goth as well...so im like..semi-goth. LOL. a goth halfling you might say. 
I'm not trying to be a pure genuine goth but you could say it is fun dressing up like one. you could see how people react to you when they see you all black with funny hair colour and lots of scary bling on you. kids would go, MOMMY MOMMY! OMG~! THAT GIRL IS SO SCARY! I THINK SHE EAT KIDS FOR BREAKFAST!! (im just exaggerating on the whole eating part)
I don't wear black lipstick cause i dun like em.. well, i think they are nice but i ain't going to try em.. looks funny when i imagine myself with dark lipstick..
well, like most of the adults and lecturers i met, they say its a phase. its annoying at first cause they would go like, oh~ i was like that once too~ when i was your age~ blah blah *I turn to bones and spiders will start spinning their cobwebs around me*
well, i won't argue with em. they could be right though that it could be a phase or it could be just what i like to dress. not being a dark person but just dressing for fun. i dun mind changing myself to another thing.
who knows, i could be a hippy in the future, smoking marijuana and going high. lol. im just kidding btw..
Can I just let it all out? Can I just scream? its bottled up inside me. But I'm too afraid to let it all out and lose it all. all this anger, sadness, loss and frustration. it just makes me more agitated. I blame it on the side effects of the PMS-ing but that just seems partial of it.
tears build up and flows down, my head is now just full of thoughts, it gives me a bloody headache all the time. Im afraid of letting myself out and throw it on those who did nothing to me. I didn't mean to get angry at you or throw it on you. something just bothers me and I really wish i could just say it but I can't, I won't and I never will.
I won't go further into details because I don't want to reveal everything. lets just leave it that way. Saying some stuff here just to let me calm down.
Everyone wants someone to listen to themto be there for themdidn't need to ask them to be therecause they know they will be thereautomatically, they will come to youthey wouldn't wait for u to askcause they care and know u need them.they wouldn't leave even though u brush em offthey would stay and listenwipe your tears that you shed.if it wasn't good enoughthey would cry along with youfeel all the heart aches you bear
sometimes friends put up wallsnot to shut you out or push you awaybut waitingfor you to break it down and comeif you listen, not just to preachers, teachers or seniorsyou'll learned a great deal of that someone.
truly, good friends are difficult to leave and hard to find and impossible to forgetthats what I love about good friends, best friends and close friendsa title thats worth more than gold true friendship doesn't always mean being there when your convenient,they will be there when ur notand when silence between friends is comfortable.but most of all, they listen.
After a tedious week of projects, I have an urge to play games and so happen to be the hidden object games. browsing through the internet and came across a game called Dying For Daylight. tried the trial version and it got me hooked. buts its trial so i only can play 1 hr!!!!
after the 1hr period is up, i got obsesses into trying to find that game!!!! oh god, the humanity!
anyway, thanks to my uncle who told me about a certain website where i can download games, i was on cloud nine!
apparently, i played the game too fast so i ended up finishing it in 1 day... not good... so i browse through again looking for more hidden objects game and found stray of souls. it was creepy but i kinda like the story plot and the creativity of the dollhouse :) i recommend anyone to go download and play it cause its seriously fun.
the homepage of the game. kinda cool cause it gives off an eerie feeling with its music :)
I got spooked at the doll at first cause its all voodoo-ish and it smiles..but after a while, i find it kinda cute :D
im kinda piss off what is going to happen to the cute voodoo doll :(
Dying For Daylight homepage :)
LOOK AT THE CUTE LITTLE DOGGIE!!!!
Dahlia.
Love her sarcasm :D
well, its a learning process to learn to accept opinions. im usually quite stubborn on this but hey, im learning.
as i look back, i thought of many things i have done, although i didn't win anything but i was actually impressed like : hey, you know what? i actually join something. i actually did something without saying oh its a waste of time, i can't do it, blah blah blah..... negative comments... ( I dun usually say these cause its really bad for you) you could say, im proud of myself, i did something, yep, i didn't win but hey, i learn something and im actually quite satisfied :) i have no regrets and its actually a good feeling but that does not mean that u have to keep failing!! lol, u have to strive to do ur best. but try not to kill urself!!
Experience : that most brutal of teachers. But you learn, my God do you learn.
quote by C.S Lewis
(the quote was funny and true)
